There is (from time to time) a debate that rages over how a submissive mind set develops. I know where mine came from......... it was my upbringing......... god!! I did what I was told - spoke when I was spoken to - followed the rules ........... and tried so hard to be a "good girl" to get a word or two of praise..........
And so I am submissive now.. all grown up... still trying to please and be pleasing - and still dying a little inside when I don't measure up......
So when something happens and W gets angry - or god forbid yells at me - I feel like my world is falling apart - it is of course all my fault - I should have tried harder / done better/ or just simply kept my mouth shut......
(which is what prompted yesterday's blog - nothing happened on The Journey - but in my real life abby - thank you for worrying )
As screwed up as this all sounds - it is my life - all that I know.
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