Friday, December 15, 2017

Too Old???





We went to the lil one's Winter Wonderland last evening.  Got there at 5 (when it opened) and got the very last parking space!!  The school was packed.  Every classroom had some organised fun Christmas activity... from gingerbread houses to paper Christmas trees, reindeer cookies, snowman faces, candy cane reindeers and so much more!!  There was a shopping room for the lil ones to buy presents for family and friends (no parents allowed in) and it was run by donation only.  The lil one had such fun shopping for Daddy and Mommy and Sheila (I felt very special!!) 

Then Sir Steve and the lil one lined up for face painting...... took 20 minutes but she was thrilled.  We spent an hour and a half at the Winter Wonderland.. and still didn't do it all -- but the rooms were closing down as the event ended in 30 minutes and they had had a much bigger attendance than last year....... We wearily made our way out to the car and came home for a quick supper of hot dogs.

When all was quiet - lil one tucked into bed, the animals curled up snoring.... I told Sir Steve that I was getting TOO old for this much Christmas excitement !!  well at least two nights back to back ........ 

I awoke alone in the bed this morning -- Sir Steve was on the sofa -- OMG!!  I figured I had been restless -- or slapped him silly again (I do that from time to time) but it turns out Sir Steve is coming down with a cold -- or mystery bug.  I am not that surprised.  He has been working outside for the last two days (in sub zero temps) .... fingers crossed he'll be able to come home early and nap.

I wrapped up the last of the Christmas presents this morning and hid them away. 
And now I intend to binge watch some Netflix and rest...... we're down to one week till Christmas and I know how busy it's gonna be next week -- and can only imagine the excitement the lil one will be exuding....... 

Christmas is coming -- with magic galore -- and that is a very good thing !

Thursday, December 14, 2017

Back on Track





The Christmas Train is back on track !!

Yesterday Sir Steve hoped to get home from work early and we would all go to see Santa and get the lil one's picture taken.  He didn't tell the lil one - wanting to surprise her and because with his work there's never any guarantee that he will be able to finish on time.

So when the lil one got home from school I asked if she wanted to play 'hair dresser' and we could practice curling her hair for Christmas.  She loved the idea -- any game that involves "let's pretend" is a favourite!! So while she watched her afternoon TV show and ate her snack I brought out the curling iron and curled the waist long hair.
Actually I was surprised how well it worked ....... and she LOVED the curls.

Daddy didn't make it home early -- but when he did get home he said "let's go".  I thought the lil one was gonna jump out of her skin she was SO excited!  She put on her red Christmas dress and white tights and we put a green ribbon in the freshly curled hair.  (even I thought she looked pretty damn cute)

Oh the magic of a little girl standing in line watching Santa talk to other girls and boys!!  She bounced -- she actually bounced and vibrated.  And when it was her turn to see Santa he said something about her dress and asked her if she would spin for him.... and spin she did!!  Then she snuggled up on his lap and told him she wanted a big bed for Christmas and a new big comforter and Shimmer and Shine and books!  Santa told her (so we were informed) that he had a magic ball that let him watch all the children and check on their behaviours ...... and she was mesmerized! 

The photographer got a good pic of them snuggling...... 

Then we went to MacDonalds for a special treat...... 

And then home to bed.  I'm not sure who was more excited - the lil one or me!

Tonite we are off to Winter Wonderland at the lil one's school where she will get to shop for presents for her family -- do crafts -- have hot chocolate and god only knows what else!  (it's my first time)


 

Wednesday, December 13, 2017

Light Bulb Moment




I had a light bulb moment the other day..... in the midst of the nonsense about Christmas.  I was sitting on the sofa -- Sir Steve sitting in his chair.  We weren't talking and my stomach was in knots and my heart was pounding.

Suddenly what I wanted more than anything was for him to make love to me.

A short time later we were walking past each other and just kinda fell into a tight hug... and Sir Steve kissed me - passionately -- and I said "tonite make love to me -- please?"  And he nodded and said 'it's exactly what I was thinking and what we need".

I realized that we both react to stressful situations in the exact same way -- we shut up........... and scowl.  It had felt like we were mad at each other -- BUT we weren't!!  We were pissed at the situation -- and the sh*t we have to deal with all the time... but not at each other.

We made sweet love and stroked and held each other .... and whispered in the dark wrapped in each other's arms.

Yesterday I sent emails to both my girls and their spouses -- and made a suggestion that would allow most of my dreams for a magical Christmas Eve to come true.  Just a little pinch here and a tuck there -- et voila it's all going to work!!

Life is good when you work things through together -- 
Life is best when you make sweet love together !

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

Too Close





The magic of Christmas is found in the wonder of a small child -- and that magic can re-awaken the joy of Christmas in the older folks.  

Thanks to the lil one I had found the magic of Christmas again -- like when I was little -- like when my girls were little -- and to some extent... like when I was teaching all my lil ones.

BUT

we share custody and I had sorta forgotten that.  Well not really -- but mother has the lil one from Friday till Sunday afternoon every weekend (at least when she's home)  
The mother and her family celebrate Christmas on the 24th (that is the Sunday this year) ...... I figured ... I planned.. I counted on us having her late in the afternoon of the 24th and was excited to have her with us at my youngest daughter's with all the children.  I do Christmas Eve dinner and 'entertainment'.  I planned a fun game for all ages.. I had visions of reading Twas the Night Before Christmas to them all..... My eldest daughter was excited to be around when the lil one opened her gifts on Christmas Eve (eldest daughter is only going to be there on the 24th -- and has absolutely SPOILED the lil one this year -- I think she found some Christmas magic in her heart too )

BUT 
the mother threw a fit ......... not only does she want the lil one till late evening on the 24th she wants to pick her up around noon on the 25th........ AND she called Sir Steve controlling and manipulative because he wouldn't agree to all of it.  (He did agree to Christmas eve till 7:00 but that's it!!)

and in an instant - POOF - there went my Christmas magic.
I have cried a river.

Once a very long time ago -- I was considering taking in foster children.  I was advised not to.. I was not a good candidate because I get too close to 'my' children.  I never believed them till now.  I DO get too close to my lil ones -- all of my lil ones.  And it hurts...... physically hurts ya know.

And that is not a good thing...........