Thursday, June 06, 2013
The Dreaded Change
A number of people have asked me recently how I am handling the huge changes coming in my life.............. which truthfully did give me pause. Usually when change looms on my horizon I immediately go into a corner in the fetal position and wait till the worst is over.
I realized - for the most part - that is not happening this time. It has been a process for sure - and not something I have dreaded (too much) or been frightened of........... and yeah I have to admit it has amazed me.
But I was asked this past week a question that I didn't really answer - cause I had a brain fart and couldn't put the emotions/feelings into coherent words.
I was asked if this relationship with W was going to be vanilla from now on - 'cause that was how it looked to this person.
This is the first time that W and I will actually live together for more than a weekend or a week. 24/7 - 365 days of the year. I think that most are figuring it ain't gonna work. These people only see the "me" I let the world see. The administrator - the strong woman who has stood on her own two feet - mostly alone - for the last 20 years or so.
I don't let people see the "me" inside. shrug - cause truthfully it ain't none of their business.
i know that D/s or M/s or whatever the hell you want to call it will be lovingly and carefully sculpted by W and me. It won't be any "50 Shades of Grey" or " Story of O" sort of D/s or M/s or whatever the hell you want to call it/ label it. We won't read the net and think we aren't doing it right cause everyone else does it differently.
NO our D/s will be just that........OURS...... it will fill our needs and wants and desires and if from the outside it looks vanilla - shrug - well that's YOUR opinion........... for U/us it will be something that fits like a comfy slipper molded to us - to our life together
And if it takes the rest of our lives to get it just right - who cares - Change is a process not an event!!!