Friday, May 27, 2011
When I first recovered from the surgery and all the damn complications....... everyone that saw me kept saying how good I looked - how skinny. It felt really good - for once in my life I was actually flattered,
Well it has been 2 months since those days, I am still measuring myself once a week (don't weigh myself - haven't got a set of scales - because I obsess over the numbers on the scale) and the inches are still slowly disappearing ( a quarter of an inch at a time) But the complements have stopped - and so they should. I am thinner it is a fact and no longer necessary to tell me.
But yesterday I went shopping for a pair of pants. (Because the pair I bought somehow got ruined with bleach like spots). While I was at the shop I saw a cute - really cute - lil black strapless dress. AND everyone knows that every woman should have at least one cute lil black dress. So I decided to try it on.
When I came out of the changing room the clerk said to me 'you need a smaller size' !!! I thought I was walking on air........ those were the nicest words anyone could say to me.. a smaller size..... wow !!!
The other amazing thing...... if you can follow this bouncing ball....... W loved me in dresses - but the bigger I got - the less I wore dresses, until I didn't wear one ever. Yesterday when I put the dress on....... I realized it did look good on me ..... and it isn't long .. and it isn't big and flowing - it is actually fitted..... and it looked good on me.
I was thinking on my way home that I don't need any other incentive to keep the weight off - or to lose the last 20 pounds - just feeling good in my clothes is enough.. just being able to buy clothes off the rack ...... being able to wear a fitted dress knowing how much it will please W ......... all internal personal reasons. No more trying to lose weight for someone else.. the feelings inside me are all the drive I need..... and boy does that feel good !!!