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Friday, July 03, 2015

Dreams.....

Two years ago I put in a BIG oriental-ish garden in the backyard.  I had such dreams back then of garden parties - barbeques - sitting in the shade of my big red umbrella reading in the afternoons.

The problem with a BIG garden is that it takes a lot of work - whether you feel like it or not..

And by the end of last summer I wasn't feeling like it... there had been no barbeques - no garden parties - just me outside reading.........

Needless to say there hasn't been a lot of enthusiasm towards the garden this summer... I only got out yesterday to start working on it... trimming back the winter kill... digging out the mounds of weeds...

The other problem with my back garden is we back on to a green space...forest.. with tons of undergrowth which grows through the back fence - and bugs... especially mosquitoes.

I am allergic to mosquitoes - and none of the damn sprays work! 

This morning I tried to work away at the mess that once was a beautiful dream - a beautiful garden,  I got to the back fence ...... started digging and was attacked by BIG man eating mosquitoes!!  I kid you not!

I lasted as long as I could - swatting and digging and swatting some more.  I watched as big red welts came up on my arms... I could feel them on my neck and head.  After an hour I was miserable - close to tears and itching so badly I thought I would rip my skin off.

I started putting everything away

W came around the back and cracked a funny (I guess) said "what you finished already?!"

It all went down hill from there... 

I landed up after he left  sitting on the front deck as far away from my garden and mosquitoes and dreams - and cried.

Some days are just not good days 
 


 

Thursday, July 02, 2015

Proud of Me

One of the things some of you might not know about me - is that I suffer from a mild form of agoraphobia (simply explained - where I am happiest not going out ) So this whole wedding trip was really pushing my limits.......... 

Especially on the Saturday morning when I decided I was going to take my camera and go wander around this strange city and take photos........ go out on my own - in a strange city - with no safety net.  BUT I did it!!  and not just for an hour then rush back to the safety and confines of my hotel room....... nope I spent virtually the whole morning out and about (and nothing BAD happened !!)

Here's some shots (proof) I took in and about this new strange city.........

The waitress at breakfast told me to get in my car - take the first right and drive straight on and I would come to the waterfront - a "sight to behold" I guess ... and it probably is on a nice sunny warm summer day.  However it was dark and cold and windy on Saturday with a misty rain falling .......... 

This was the first thing I came across after parking my car at the water front......


 would you believe there was a scuba diving class going on???  


 the water was rough and uninviting - but I actually saw some kiddies paddling down by the beach!


and there were boaters........








 I continued along the water front and came across this pretty lil park complete with duck pond ... and ducks.  Now usually I don't take duck pictures - everyone seems to take ducks - but I couldn't resist these two shots......

This guy was really in a snit - and telling everyone who would listen........  


and this guy couldn't be bothered getting involved in all the nonsense !!




 And then I veered away from the water front and walked into the town itself for a bit...

 couldn't help but wonder who would drink beer made by "flying monkeys"
 
 
and then just some shots from here and there...







then it was time to head back to the hotel (now where was it again??!!!  thank god for GPS), lunch and the wedding.


  

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

Weary Traveller home from my Journeys

I started off on my BIG adventure early Friday morning - nervous as all get out.... honestly my life to this point did NOTHING to prepare me for the type of independence I now need (sadly)

I managed to make it to my brother's house where I was to pick up my camera (in the back yard in the barbeque) and then found my way to the 407 and the 400.  Once I got a short distance up the 400 I decided to stop at an Onroute (service center) and have a picnic lunch.  To celebrate further I took a selfie - to share with family and friends on facebook. 




Of course stopping for lunch then got me stuck in cottage country traffic but I still made good time and got settled into the hotel with loads of time.....



Huge room for one person no??? and the bed??!!!  a whole village could have fit in it I swear !!!!  I met up with eldest daughter and her partner for dinner and we feasted on good Chinese food ......... had a wonderful chat ....... and then we came back to the hotel - they went to the pool and hot tub and I went up to my room to watch some TV and veg.

Saturday morning I was up with the birds - went to the hotel gym - had breakfast and then headed out with my camera to explore Barrie.  Those pictures I will save for another day........ 

And then of course Saturday afternoon was the wedding.  It was beautiful (despite the cold and rain) but then aren't all weddings beautiful!!?? 








Sunday morning I had hoped to have a final breakfast with the family - but no one was up and about and I got restless so by 10:00 I was on my way down the 400 in the pouring rain.  

I have to admit it was a fun adventure - BUT - it was good to come home!

Saturday, June 27, 2015

Quick Thought

(surprise !!!  you didn't think I would be here today didja?? well here I am!!)






The other day on "Well that was awkward"  Michele d left me a comment.  

She said in part.........I'd love to read that you brought a date back to the house to see how well THAT goes over!

And it has kinda been rolling around in my head...

to answer you Michele - I am 99.9% sure it wouldn't bother W at all.... not even if I brought home a viral young thing who could f**k me silly - nope don't think it would bother W at all.

BUT ..couple of things about that... I couldn't... wouldn't ... bring a new lover home .. I couldn't / wouldn't do that to W.......... cause that is just who I am.

Also ... I can't just go find someone to f**k around with.... snap my fingers - forget about 15 years ... and hop into the next bed available... can't do it.. it's just not me... I am not a SLUT - never have been.... never will be...........

If I have nothing else - I have my pride!  and my word !  and my integrity !

Friday, June 26, 2015

I'm Off...........

I'm off on an Adventure...........

My nephew is getting married this weekend and I am off for a 4 hour drive ... gonna stay in a hotel for 2 nights .... eat in restaurants - dance my feet off ... and hopefully have an amazing time.

Lot of firsts in this adventure
first time I have driven so far by myself............
first time I have navigated to a new city - through a new city ......
first time I have stayed in a hotel by myself.....
first time I have gone to a big social event by myself......

If I can do this - then I can do anything right??? 


(and if all else fails - my eldest daughter will be there - and my brother and his wife - so it's not like I'll be all by myself )

I'll be back on Sunday ............ and back on here on Monday to tell you all about it !!!