Sunday Sentiments

I think - right about now - we need some positive thoughts - there's been way too many tears and hurtful words.

Thought Provoking

 A friend posted - what I consider an excellent question - this morning on FetLife.  I answered him there - but thought I would bring my answer over here... cause a) the question is worth thinking about for anyone/everyone and b) I didn't have a blog post this morning (cheeky grin)

Now the question was:   

"What one piece of advice would you give yourself, knowing what you know now."

And my answer went something like this ...

1) Have fun - laugh - enjoy - don't take it too seriously
cause truthfully folks - if it starts being all serious and not fun anymore - you are doing it wrong - OR - it's time to move on.
 
2) Explore - learn - don't be afraid (well within reason - some things are fun to be afraid of - others just good sense)
I was thinking when I wrote this bit - how fear does play a big part in my "turn on" -- BUT for me anyway - I spent a fair amount of time being afraid I wasn't pleasing him.... or that I would do something wrong........ it clogged my heart  and made it hurt.  
 
3) Always - ALWAYS - remain true to yourself and your moral code
Sometimes you bend and twist yourself to try and be what the Dom/sub wants you to be......that's just wrong in so many ways........... you have to be YOU - experience has taught me I can't be anyone else - or some image someone else has of who/what I should be.
 
4) Don't be intimidated by the Doms or the more experienced - or anyone - as a very wise man (my father ) once told me "they all put their pants on one leg at a time"
When I was a "newbie" I thought (honestly!!)  that somehow Doms walked on water .. were demi gods (oh stop laughing!!) I have learned that they are human just like me - with the same foibles and insecurities ... respect everyone  - dom and sub a like - be kind to everyone - dom and sub alike and you will find joy and happiness and much laughter in this lifestyle.     

Another Hard Limit Bites The Dust

On the weekend I was invited to a house party - a pool / potluck barbeque party.

Now I had been warned that this pool party was a "swim suit optional" party.  UGH!  I have never EVER gone skinny dipping ... in public.. in front of anyone!  (Once a long long time ago - when my ex and I had a pool in the backyard - and it was a hot steamy night - I did disrobe and plunge in the pool to cool off at 3:00 am - but I don't count that)

I was reassured that some folks would be in suits - that I did not HAVE to disrobe - but I still had butterflies.  Would I feel the odd man out trotting around in a suit?? Would I feel worse trotting around naked?? ahhhh the dilemmas we subs go through when we don't have someone to "order" it - and take the responsibility off our shoulders - so we can trot around naked - and be able to say "not my choice I was ORDERED to" and have a clear conscience!

I had (and wore) a very cute black and white striped strapless sun dress...... a kinda cover up.  I was wearing that (sans swim suit) at the pool when folks starting arriving - starting stripping down and diving in.  I curled up and tried to disappear into the chair.  

Then I heard this voice from the pool - "S - it's time to come in the pool.  NOW."  I - with great trepidation - stripped off my sundress and walked to the ladder and climbed in.  Not a word was spoken - everyone continued splashing and laughing and ignoring me.. I felt pretty damn good.......... no one had noticed !!

Eventually I wanted a drink and some sun - I approached the ladder nonchalantly.   As I started to climb the ladder - one of the Doms (good naturedly and teasingly ) started chanting "I see S's bare bum - I see S's bare bum" and everyone laughed - including me.  The worst was over.  

And it didn't turn into some great orgy of naked bodies engaging in all sorts of sexual activities.  It was just like a 'normal' pool party - lots of splashing and teasing and good natured fun............. 

After a marvelous barbeque feast - some of us started a game of "Cards against Humanity" a game I have heard a lot about - but never played.  I was so excited - like a kid at a party.  The cards were raunchy and there was lots of giggling and laughter as our cards were read out - we were all relaxed and getting into the spirit of the game. (of course the pre-dinner "purple" drinks went a long way to help .......... 

I couldn't believe how fast the time went - soon the lights were put on around the pool ... the last of the swimmers climbed out and dried off........ and everyone started to slowly leave.

I had a warm glow - these people - these friends - were amazing.  I felt accepted and maybe more than that I did truly feel loved!  

When I was tucked into bed - a kiss on my forehead - the blankets pulled tight around me and the soft words spoken "sweet dreams" I smiled - how could I NOT have sweet dreams ?!

New Bucket List

I think this will be my new bucket list..... gonna reach for the stars - try everything possible and maybe some not so possible and at the end make sure I have no regrets!

Dance like Nobody's Watching

Last evening a group of us went to Market Square to "Rock the Square" .  Kingston had organised a free rock concert with Miss Emily as the opening act ........ and Big Sugar as the main event.

I had not heard of either of them.   I was assured if I liked reggae music with a mix of blues thrown in for good measure I would like Big Sugar.  No one else seemed to know this "Miss Emily"

I figured this new me - venturing out to all sorts of new things - would probably enjoy an introduction to some new "hip" bands ....... so I agreed.

We met up with more friends downtown and went to dinner (my dinner was a big disappointment - I didn't think anyone could ruin  Chicken Tikka Marsala - but they did) The restaurant was packed - everyone had the same bright idea - dinner before the show.  But thanks to some quick thinking on our server's part - we wolfed down dinner and made it to the square with minutes to spare!!

We had had a gorgeous day - sunny and warm - no humidity and the evening looked really promising............ 

until....

the black clouds started to roll in..........

But a few showers didn't dampen our enthusiasm for this Miss Emily - she was amazing!!  I loved her style and she soon had everyone clapping and singing along and grooving to the music.

 Some members of the Tragically Hip joined Miss Emily on stage for her final numbers

There was a brief break after she finished while they set up for Big Sugar - and the black clouds threatened ... the storm circled the downtown but never actually made it to us........We watched as Mother Nature put on quite a light show all around us - huge lightening bolts lighting up the night sky but it did nothing to dampen our enthusiasm for the show. 

Unfortunately the one thing I hadn't planned on - was the crowd rushing the stage when Big Sugar came out and that greatly hampered my getting any decent pictures..... but here are a few of the ones I did manage to snap.............

 

 

 After an hour and a half of beating out the tunes - the show came to a close ........ 

What an experience!!  I'll even admit to a wee bit of "dancing like nobody was watching"