In my world (and oh lordie how often do I discuss "my world"??!!) People say what they mean and mean what they say. Everyone can be trusted. People do not deliberately hurt other people.
Yeah that's in my world of fairies and unicorns and perpetual sunshine.
In the real world that belief isn't even close.
When I moved here - I spent a lot of time sitting on the sidelines watching people - getting to know who was who and what was what. Oh lordie there were a whole mess of people who wanted to fill me in on folks - who I could trust - who I couldn't/shouldn't - that sort of thing. BUT I wanted to find out by myself.
The only thing is - there was one name that came up over and over and over. Didn't matter who I talked to - their opinion was always the same. This one - she wanted what she wanted and don't get in her way.
BUT she always seemed quite pleasant to me. She even invited W and I to her house for a dinner party. She supports the sub group I run and almost never misses a meeting. But I have to admit - there was just something - under the surface that made my red flags flap - and the warning bells go off....like maybe how she tried to get an invitation to our collaring ceremony - and how she seemed to sulk when she wasn't invited.
She is a bottom and plays with a married Top. (and it's all above board cause the wife knows) This married Top had other bottoms. Slowly in just the few months I have been here all the other bottoms have disappeared. Now he only plays with this particular bottom.
Oh I have heard his explanations and they all make sense - timing - and attitude - like I said his reasons all made sense.
BUT I kept hearing how this bottom made sure the Top didn't get too involved with anyone else. To the point that the wife now won't be in the same house as this bottom.... leaves them to their own devices and comes home only when she is gone. (and yes I have a very strong opinion on that - and have diplomatically told the wife my opinion)
Once a month W and I go to a meeting of rope enthusiasts. It is organised and run by this Top. The bottom is always there. She pretty much runs the show. And yes it has been grating on my nerves..................but I controlled my irritation by reminding myself this is not a D/s relationship - only a Rope Top and rope bottom. "bite your tongue"
Only thing is............... she has been making quips against W both on line and in person. This has been her MO - to belittle and gossip and whisper behind people's backs. It has been irritating me.............. and building - like a pressure cooker. And you all know what happens when the pressure cooker has too much pressure built up inside.............
Last Friday night W and I went to this rope meeting. She was in rare form. She started making snide comments directed at W almost immediately. I kept watching W. My blood pressure was mounting. He seemed to be shrugging the comments off.
But then she said something - honestly I don't even remember what it was - and the smoke started to spill out of my ears. I said - through gritted teeth - that I was going out for a smoke. Another subbie came with me. She hugged me almost as soon as we were outside. She had heard the snarky comments - she had pretty much the same reaction as I had.
I managed to limp through the evening. But since Friday evening I have wondered about my attendance at further meetings. NO ONE stands up to this bitch .....(and her TOP - bloody deaf and blind if you ask me!!) ........ I wonder if it would be unseemly for me to defend my Sir.... well actually would it be unseemly for me to rip this bitch a new one period??? I have had just about all I can take from her...............
Some days ........... I just want to cast a magic spell around our little home - lock the door and disappear from all the ugliness that lies just outside.
