Doorbell

(warning - graphic sexual content with pictures 
yeah you know now you can't wait to read/see!!!)

I had a post ready in my head for today..... already to write....... then I visited Windy's blog and thought OMG how appropriate is that for my post??!!!

see yesterday Sir Steve decided we had to have some play time..... well more like some sexy time....... and despite some playful fun all day (like Sir Steve putting some snow down my back - HARD LIMIT -- RED RED RED) and despite my head totally being in the game - my body wasn't  (see my sad face) 

It doesn't happen often (my body not being there) but it does happen occasionally.  Sir Steve is very adapt at getting my body there...... and yesterday was no exception.  Yesterday he focused on my 'doorbell' (read Windy's blog for goodness sakes!)

There was a lot of pussy slapping and tugging on my doorbell -- ohhhhhhhh lord my knees are going weak remembering the tugs on my doorbell.  For the record my doorbell is a bit ornate....... decorated for my pleasure.... 

and oh yeah it does elevate my pleasure !!!  and yeah definitely not for everyone.  

There is something very hot about Sir Steve tugging and stroking and slapping... again not for everyone -- but it satisfies the masochist in me..... 

All this playing ended in some very satisfying (VERY satisfying) sexy times.......

Life is good when the doorbell works !

 

Flying Floating

I  have been floating along -- loose and free -- rebellious a bit -- doing what I wanted - not always thinking it through.

One of the things I did was replace my old clit jewelry with what I bragged was "bigger is better".  If you want to read that entry it is HERE.   
My Piercer told me / warned me it was too big ....... but I was in this 'mood' -- this 'I will do what I want' mind set.  

Well he was right - of course.  The ring was too big - and I have had more than one "wardrobe malfunction" .  BUT more than that - when I would catch a glimpse of it getting in or out of the shower - I didn't much like it.  BUT pride would not let me admit I had made a mistake.

Over the last few weeks - things have been settling down inside me.... I like to think someone has reached up and tentatively caught hold of the drifting string dangling from me - and started to pull me down - reel me in.  

Last Friday I had a chance to speak with my Piercer and told him my dilemma - he just kinda smiled and shrugged - much like a parent does when the child admits it has made a mistake.  So yesterday I went down to BlackStar Piercing and had the large ring removed and a much smaller more delicate ring put in.  This time there was no fanfare - no girlfriends tagging along to watch and take pictures.  Just me correcting a mistake.

I came home and looked at it in the mirror.  It just sorta peeks out -- it's not big and obvious and in your face .. it's what I like to think is more "lady-like" (if "ladies" actually had their clits pierced)

Yes it certainly feels like I am finding my way back to my roots -- back to who I really am.

  

The Changes continue - in with the new

Well this was the BIG weekend for me - and for Angel.

Two weeks ago my original clit piercing broke (for those that don't know the back story) and Angel and I went to  Blackstar Piercing    to see if it could be fixed.......... and 24 hours later it was broken again - decision made!

While we were there Angel was looking through the catalogue and announced she wanted to have her nipples pierced.

So I got things organised and Angel and I and another friend went off on Saturday for "Angel's day".

What fun we had!  Angel selected her jewelry - and I convinced Blackstar that the ring he had for me was NOT too big !!!

Angel went first - and I have to admit my knees went weak!!  Honest to god she is much braver than I am - I would NEVER pierce my nipples!!  It was amazing to watch - and of course I had brought my camera and took pictures. 

(remember click on the picture if you want to see the 'big picture')

                              There's the 'virgin' nipple all ready ..... 

 Getting everything prepared ............ 

It's hard to make out but the needle/jewelry is going through....... 

no more a virgin nipple 

AND I got to display them for the final shot!!!
"Full Metal Angel" (direct quote from Angel)

Now mine was not nearly as interesting - no needles involved - just tweezers and a quick push - to force the larger scale jewelry through the small hole...........

goodbye to the old 

push and pull 

in with the new

and yeah baby - BIGGER is better :)

That was the final tie to me the submissive - now it is time to start "exploring" what the new me looks like - feels like and the heights she can climb to............ 


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And just a side note here 

Our other friend is a nurse - and she was very intent on checking out the cleanliness and at the end she told Blackstar how impressed she was - even small details that a lay person wouldn't notice like cross contamination didn't happen.........

Anyone in the Kingston area looking for an excellent piercer I highly recommend Blackstar  

OOOOOOPs!! (and Q&A)

On Saturday I posted that my clit jewelry had fallen apart and that Angel was going with me to a friend's piercing studio to get it fixed.

Blackstar told me that he would put it back together - but no promises it would hold.  He told me not to twist it ... but HEY!!  that's the fun of a clit piercing ya know??!!  We talked about the possibility of replacing it with a simple ring - thicker gauge - bigger ball.... and tentatively made an appointment to go back in two weeks to have it done.

I have had the gauge on this jewelry changed once... what an experience!!  I won't say it hurt as much as being pierced - but ya know there is a "je ne sais quoi" about having a bigger ring forced through a small hole....... I just keep telling myself the masochist in me will handle it just fine ........... 

My shy Angel surprised me!  When the jewelry was fixed I wanted a pic to show you all ....... and I asked Angel if she would do it.  She didn't even bat an eyelash.   In fact she squatted down between my spread legs and really got into the picture taking!!!

Here's the one pic I selected to show you all it's fixed and working just fine thank you very much !!

 BUT


 Fast forward to Sunday........ 

We will NOT discuss how or why - but the jewelry came apart again (see my sad face?)

So the decision of whether to change out the bondage ball for a new thicker ring has been made... an email sent to Blackstar - and the date set for Saturday April 2nd....... with Angel at my side and  camera ready!!

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Now for Q&A 

I only had one question from yesterday (I think I am pouting)...

kaya asked:
it's not Japan but have you ever considered visiting Houston? :D

I know you'd said that your daughters have your blog url. What's that been like? Any negatives? Has it changed how or what you will blog about?

What kind of music do you listen to in your car? While playing? While cleaning? 

 kaya is teasing me about thinking about going to Houston..... ya see we've already been talking about my going down for a visit - hell we even got the EVIL Master's permission to have "the brat" show up ........ so yeah kaya I am considering it - when you have cleared your calendar - thinking maybe late August or sooner?? 

And I am thinking the statement about my daughters having the url to The Journey might shock some of you.  BUT let's remember here both my daughters are grown up Adults - and both are in the lifestyle to one extent or another.  

As far as how that affects my writing here.. at first it was difficult to be as open as I usually am - but then I just kinda shut down that part of my brain that is "Mom" .  Youngest daughter (as far as I know) never comes here.  Eldest daughter drops by every so often - to check up on me and make sure everything's moving along well.  (cause ya know - sometimes "Mom" doesn't tell her daughter what she's actually doing !!) The relationship has changed drastically between my daughters and myself since I moved out on my own.  In January when I was down visiting youngest - I brought up the fact that I was "dating" .  She said quite bluntly I might add " just fuck 'em Mom have fun - you don't have to set any example for your daughters anymore!!" (I guess I did something right with the girls)

And as for changing what I post or don't - HELL I just posted pics of my clit jewelry so no it doesn't!! (grinning) 

As for music - despite being retired I still crave the peace and quiet so I seldom have any music on.... except in the car when I am driving

OR (cheeky grin) 

when The Sadist comes to visit it helps drown out the rhythmical sounds of floggers and paddles and canes........... 
Mostly I prefer blues/jazz. 

Oh and Hil - I didn't miss your question - but am gonna answer it tomorrow - I am sure this "stream" of  questions is gonna peter out pretty darn quick and I want something to answer tomorrow....... :)

Remember you can leave your questions in the comments box from now till the end of the month.  and yes you can post your question "anonymously"
 

Q & A

NOOOOOOO that is not the same as T & A!

March has always been Question and Answer month around blogland - and this year for some reason I didn't get involved. 

Hell my life is such an open book I can't believe anyone would have any questions left to ask ........... 

BUT - not to be a party poop - IF you have any questions you feel like asking - feel free to drop them in the comment section and I will answer them the next day.

OH and for those of you who don't have a google account or don't want to use it - all you have to do is hit the "comment" button at the bottom of this entry and pick post anonymous - it's as easy as that :)

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Now on to today's posting..............  

I can't remember how long ago I had my clit pierced - but it must be at least 10 years.  I chose a "bondage ball" ring. 

Now that jewelry has been through the wars - to put it mildly.  It has had rope threaded through it - it has been flogged - and whipped - and caned.  It has been twisted and turned and pulled.  AND it is quite a discussion piece when some doctor or medical technician stumbles across it. 

A month ago the bondage ball part of the jewelry fell off on my bed. (it's the loop you can see hanging down)  Thank god I found it!!  Daddy Dom managed to screw it back on.  It lasted a month.  But I found it on the floor one morning when I was making the bed.

I had to make a decision - do I replace it with something else - or see if it can be repaired.  I can't imagine NOT having this particular piece of jewelry.  Trust me when I say it vastly enhances my sexual desires!

Today Angel is coming with me when I go see a piercer friend who will tell me if it can be repaired or if I have to replace it.  He also told me he has never seen anything like it so I am guessing I can't just replace it.  I think every damn thing that can be crossed is crossed for luck - I do want it repaired!!!