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i am having such nice warm fuzzies right now.......... it has been so long.. so very long.....

ok let me go back a bit and start at the beginning..........

i haven't felt a sexual twinge (unprovoked) since Christmas.......... i was told that the "feelings" would come back ...... just be patient... well it has been almost 6 weeks since i swallowed the last lil white pill......... and nothing... i have even tried some porn (well by my definition) and nothing.. not one twinge... dry as a bone.. nothing.......

Today when i came home i was sitting here at the pc playing backgammon (ok i admit it i am totally addicted to Backgammon) and my mind was wandering .. sort of flitting from one thing to the next and then i realized i was wiggling on my chair..... wiggling !!! ok ok.. you don't get it...... when i wiggle on anything usually my jewelry tugs and plays with my clit...... only up to this point i haven't wiggled - OR - if i have - it hasn't rung any bells (so to speak)

i kinda stopped.. held my breath .. and let my brain register ....... was i actually feeling something?! i wasn't sure..... it was just a twinge.. but it was a twinge..

Right away i text messaged Sir and asked for permission to play....... and immediately He answered back "yes"......... i won't lie to you.... as i walked to the bedroom my heart was pounding ........what if it was just a twinge and nothing happened.. what if i couldn't awaken the twinge into a full blown orgasm??



i pulled out the big guns....... the hitachi....... it has been so long since it has been used i had to wipe the dust and spider webs off it.... (JOKE!) and plug it in.... it had absolutely no juice......


i slipped it in and it was a tight fit...... can you become a virgin again?!! and i turned it on slow........... i slowly angled it so the head would rest against my jewelry and my clit..... honest to god i nearly levitated off the bed......it felt like a soft buzz saw running over my clit......... and that was on the slow speed !!! i had to lift it off.. it was way too much....... but i could feel the tightness in my lower belly..... and i wanted this so bad.........

i closed my eyes tight and pictured Sir sitting on the bed beside me.. i imagined His voice being all stern and Dommy..... saying "lie still ...... do NOT move........ not a sound" and i flipped the switch to high........... and brought it back down on my clit......... oh my god !!!!! my back arched but i didn't lift it off my clit..... 'Sir' was still sitting on the bed.. still holding the vibrator and i was still hearing "not a sound" and wow........... my belly tightened even more..... and i was grinding my body into the vibrator and the vibrator into my body...... and in less time than it has taken me to write this i was spurting all over the bed... gasping for air...... and feeling ............ exalted !!!

Dare i hope my libido is back...... in full form???