It's funny how people see us differently than we see ourselves....... at least that has been my experience.
It's also interesting to me how influential someone's words can be - for good or bad.
On the weekend mini me gave me a gift - she doesn't know she did - but she did. I don't remember when/how she said it - but she said "you have will power". I had never thought about it before. If you had asked me I wouldn't have said I have "will power" - but since mini me said it I have been very aware of my own will power... from going to the gym every morning and climbing on the treadmill and doing my 3 miles whether I feel like it or not - to logging every bit of food that goes in my mouth and watching my calories. ( I will admit my "will power" gets a big boost cause the weight is coming off)
Now I am fighting to bring my sugars down (because I do NOT want to become diabetic and have to take pills or insulin) I am not only counting calories - but counting the carbs and sugars I eat.... which has meant I have cut the sugar in my coffee by half - yeah I don't enjoy my coffee the same but hey!! it only makes sense. I have stopped ALL sugary drinks - especially my one can of coke a day. I had people say "well one can can't be that bad" .............. Yesterday I checked there are 30grams of sugar in one can - my daily allotment is 50 ........... so it was an easy decision to cut out the can of coke a day.
It was an easy decision - but not so easy to stick to. Yesterday for some reason I craved a coke - was climbing the walls wanting one............. there is coke in my fridge easy enough to grab one and have a mouthful or two - or three........... but I didn't. I heard mini me's words "will power" over and over in my head.
I have managed to bring my daily sugars down from being in the red every day - to safely in the green zone. YAY me!
Now some have been less that supportive in my efforts to cut out extra sugars and stop this downward spiral into diabetes. I have been told there really is nothing that will work - IF I am gonna be diabetic - it will happen. I have also heard a number of people whine and whine about being diabetic ....... but really do very little to turn it around.
I am hoping that these positive steps I have taken to bring my sugar under control - and the steps I have taken to loose weight and be stronger will work. So many things in our lives are not under our control. I am willing to work hard to cut back my sugars, to loose weight - to take responsibility/control of the things I CAN control! I am not going to sit back and whine about how unfair it is........... not over this.......not over something I honestly truly believe I can turn around.
I have will power - mini me says I have it! and I will successfully do this !!!