Monday, November 23, 2015
I had a bit of an "eureka" moment this weekend. (part of the healing process I think) I want to try and explain - to put it down in words so when I waiver I can come back and read this - and set my feet firmly under me and continue on MY path.....
This eureka moment started when I realized how much drama has been in my life for the last few years. Let me say this first - I do NOT like drama - at all. It ties me up in knots and makes me literally and figuratively sick to my stomach.
And it started with a simple malfunction of my DVD player on Saturday night.
There was nothing on television on Saturday night, so I decided to put on Netflix and find a movie or show to watch. Netflix started to load then the DVD player just locked up and wouldn't work - wouldn't turn off - wouldn't turn on........ it was just in limbo. I sat staring at it............. what to do?? My stomach knotted up - and I caught myself holding my breath. I was waiting for the anger - the complaining - for the "woe's is me" for the lashing out verbally and on line.
This was my choice now. I could chose to be angry and upset - or I could choose to walk away and find my peace - and not stress over it.
That's what I did..... chose peace and calm over drama. I watched mindless shows on television and ignored the fact the DVD player wasn't working.......... it was not the end of the world... it did not have to create drama - it was my choice how to handle this ............
On Sunday evening - after a fun day at my grandson's birthday - I came home to the peace and quiet of my home. I looked at the DVD player sitting on the shelf - and decided to try unplugging it and plugging it back in........... EUREKA - the DVD was again working fine - and Netflix came on.
AND a lesson was learned.
It is now my choice how to handle problems - I can create a whole mess of drama and stress - or I can choose to take the path that leads to calm and quiet. There are no more voices telling me how I should react to things.. who I should give hell to .... how things should be handled. It is truly my choice now.
And I discovered I could chose calm and peace - toss the drama out the window and wow what an amazing feeling!!
My life - my choice - my path!