It is ....to my amazement... January 2nd 2007. Somewhere .. somehow .. the first week of my holidays passed in a blur of entertaining... of meals to prepare and dishes to clean up..... it was fun but it was exhausting. i even managed to fulfill my self imposed commitment to Holidailies and posted 31 times during the month.
Today more than anything i wanted to take everything down.. every candle .. every wreath.. every santa.. every piece of tinsel and greenery, and turn my house back into my quiet orderly home. However....... in mid December .. when the excitement and goodwill and cheer were running hot through my veins.. i invited all my staff from school to dinner on January 4th! (yeah yeah shoot me now !!) So the decorations will stay up for another couple of days..... and i have one more meal / event to get ready for. But my heart and soul is ready to hibernate.. to shut down and lock down and hide till spring. Have i told you all i absolutely HATE winter??!!! My need to socialize has been fulfilled.. i need my center.. i need my routine.. i need my quiet back.. thank you very much !!! (i must indeed be getting old)
Sir and i hosted our Annual Kinky BDSM New Year's Day Open House yesterday. Sir and i have mixed feelings about the event. People didn't rsvp (why was i surprised??!!) and only about half of the invites came. Has everyone given up BDSM for the hoidays?? for life??
We were talking .. a little bit .. last evening about the number of folk who have passed through our lives.......... and disappeared. BDSM wasn't what they were looking for.. vanilla life beckoned...... and in a blink of an eye they were gone. (not forgotten - but most definitely gone). i remember a few years back - after a particular legal scare - talking to a submissive who said she and her Dom were going to disappear from public life .. at least until their children were grown... and something she said bothered me then.. bothers me today. She said "that the people who called themselves friends - would not be hanging around much longer .. that BDSM was all they had in common.. and they weren't really "friends" in the true sense of the word 'friends'. And i believe she was right......... the "friends" that have gone poof in our lives proves that. Just ships passing in the night...
Gets me thinking ... what are friends except folk you share a common interest with??? and when that common interest is gone...... so is the friendship. What is there to talk about - the weather - the state of the nation??
ugh.......i am being maudlin. i HATE being maudlin!! It is time (well on Friday) to pack up the holiday and store it away for another year........ and time to curl up and dream of summer and secret gardens and all the good books that await me.