Wednesday, August 09, 2006


i am weary today... in my heart. Know what i mean?? when you just feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders. It doesn't help that the song "bridge over troubled waters" keeps going round and round in my head either. Those lyrics have always made tears come to my eyes....

This morning i posted to my fictional journal... what i am half hoping is my last daily post for the summer. Yup .. summer's over kids! well almost over - next Wednesday will find me back in the swing of things again.

After posting the story i went to drag up all the camping gear. Sir and i are off on Friday for our yearly BDSM camping excursion. (though this year we are heading south of the border instead of west ) And i felt a surge of excitment at the thought of a weekend away camping in the woods with other BDSMers..

BUT in the back of my mind was our dear friend Cloud....... he has been ill - seriously ill - for a little over 2 weeks now. He is finally home from hospital but has requested no phone calls - no contact. He is just too sick. Last year he made the journey with us to camp.. and each item i brought up from the basement brought back memories of last year's trip.

Then i heard that a dear dear friend lost his dad this morning. What words do you send to someone who has suffered such a loss?? i cried as i wrote the letter. i can only pray to the gods that be to hold him close during this painful time.

Then i decided i really needed to sit outside in the sunshine and read. Quiet time in my secret garden. The phone rang. It was Cloud - his voice so weak i barely recognised him. The infection is running rampant through his body and the miracle drugs just aren't working their magic. He wants me to come tomorrow and pick up bags ......... all His BDSM toys so that .. in case.. god forbid.. his family won't have to deal with them. i didn't miss a beat.. didn't pause once.. agreed to pick them up tomorrow and keep them safe here until He once again is up to using them. (god let that day come quickly!!)

And the song goes on......

When you're weary, feeling small,
When tears are in your eyes,
I will dry them all;
I'm on your side.
when times get rough
And friends just cant be found,
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.


SeaRabbit said...

Please, tell Cloud that I'm thinking often of him and all we could have talk about this last munch... I wish he will be there at the next...
You really had a hard day... and I'm sending good vibs for your tomorrow...

Anonymous said...

Please let Cloud know that Michael and I are thinking positive thoughts on his behalf and hope that he will soon be able to rejoin all his friends again...

~ Mistress Jade Dragon

anna said...

I'm so sorry that you're feeling troubled. My heart breaks for you and for those you love who are struggling with their health and emotions.

If there's anything I can do - even just lend and ear - please let me know.

(( warm hugs ))

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for your dear friend, and to hear that your friend Cloud is not doing well. My prayers are with you and them at this time.

alluring red

RAheretic's swan said...

I am sorry I have been so absent... My very best wishes and energies to Cloud for a speedy return to health and strength...

And a hug for you and those you care about who mourn and grieve at this time.

I hope your weekend is joyful and wonderful.


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