Sunday Sentiments

 

 

Christmas in Review

 

 

We took all our Christmas decorations down on Wednesday.  Yup all gone - 2 days before the 1st.  That's a new one for me... 

I tried ya know - to make Christmas as much fun as in past years...... but in my heart I felt I didn't quite make it. I keep saying that covid hasn't changed my life too much - but I'm thinking it has... somehow the whole situation (the rising numbers - the deaths  - the worry........ ) has managed to creep into my soul.  

I did everything I have always done for the holidays -- way too much baking -- prepared way too much food -- bought all sorts of presents...decorated every corner of the house... wanting to make it perfect for everyone but feeling that I somehow had fallen short.  Even the lil one's BIG gift didn't arrive in time for Christmas despite being bought a full month ahead of schedule

It didn't help that the lil one continued to push my buttons (despite my feeling we had rounded the corner with her behaviours) .. and left me feeling lacking and sad and truthfully counting the days till we could send her off to her mother's so I could have time off..........

Sir Steve was a big help over the holidays - pitching in constantly - I don't think I washed a dish for most of the holidays -- but (probably cause of my mood) I felt separated from him for most of it......though we did have some fun times together after the lil one went to her mothers!  (but that's for another day - another blog)

I am sure there are a number of Grinches who will be grinchily grinning  at the thought of my down sided Christmas........ BUT it's only one exceptional Christmas right?? I'm sure next Christmas I'll be back in all my Christmas splendour!

Life is good when you believe ..................

 

And -- it's here -- FINALLY!

 

 

 

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Seriously............ my wish for you all..........
 

S

Intentions

 

 Today's the day.......... 

Time to write your New Year's resolutions........... unless you don't.  

I don't.... haven't for many years.... I wonder if resolutions are for the young - for the hopeful.. for the believers........ maybe?  definitely not for old folks like me - who have learned by experience that resolutions are an exercise in failure...... 

Yesterday my morning news show recommended not calling it 'resolutions' that it should be called "intentions" that way you won't feel as much a failure ... after all it is just intentions...... not resolutions.  

A rose by any other name ....... ya know?!

The one tradition I have is cleaning the house ....... sorting and tossing stuff...... resolutions? intentions? not so much ............. 

Life is good when the house is sorted before the new year..........

The Fantasy and the Reality

 

 

This week - the week between Christmas and New Year's - is our week.  On December 18th when Sir Steve started his 2 week holiday - I could SEE our 2 weeks together.  

Week one was family responsibility - the lil one was home with us ... eldest daughter and SIL were coming down for Christmas...... 

BUT - week two - no lil one (she's with her mother) - just us........ (singing) "just the two of us"..................... 

The Fantasy:

sleeping in late - having early morning sex - then breakfast in bed - croissants and hot coffee ... and absolutely NO crumbs!
binge watching movies ... meals magically appearing - amazing meals!  gourmet meals!
spankings - whips and chains and floggers OH MY! all the time!!
Late nights - sleeping all night snuggled together.

The Reality:

my internal alarm clock is still going off at 5:00 am -- no breakfast in bed cause I've had my breakfast and coffee before Sir Steve even gets up
Laundry to do - loads of laundry - all the bed linens and towels and clothes and table cloths ........... piles and piles of laundry
Dirty house - dog hair everywhere - bits of wrapping paper everywhere - dust bunnies
Decorations that for some reason look tired - so add to the mess/dirt  all the Christmas storage boxes - and ornaments and santas and sleighs lined up ready to be packed away.........
no gourmet meals - instead leftovers - and more leftovers - till I am tired of food.
BUT we have binge watched movies - and gone to bed late - AND I still wake up frequently... and am wide awake at 5 ......... so colour me exhausted before I even start my day........
OH and so far no sex - no whips and chains and floggers OH MY! cause we're talking reality here not fantasy..........

Life is good when you still believe in the Fantasy.......