i love Christmas.. i really do....... it's just that as the years go by it seems more frantic .. everyone has somewhere else to be... and so all the time i invest in cooking and cleaning and decorating seems to go unnoticed .. or unappreciated.. or unsomething or other.. and it leaves me wondering why i bother?
When the girls were small .. and had no where else to be.. the holidays were spent around the Christmas tree .. eating and playing games and laughing... after the 25th it was very relaxed and laid back.... Now it seems that the girls fly in like whirling dervishes .. turn the house upside down .. and i don't feel like i even get time to sit and visit with them before they are whirling out the door to other functions........ and i am left wondering what hit me!!
Yesterday was my idea of how the season should go........... Sir came out leisurely around mid morning..and then we drove out to the country to our favourite country pub for a leisurely lunch. (Now it would have been much nicer if the pub had actually had some heat on....... and if i hadn't had to eat my lunch bundled up in my coat!!! They claimed the heat was on....... but .. the goose bumps on my arms and the frozen feet were evidence that something was wrong !!) BUT despite the no heat .. it was just what my heart needed....to relax and enjoy a meal without a whole lot of noise and whirling dervishes
Today - the 31st - is the traditional day for making a list of New Year's resolutions........ and by the 2nd - breaking them. i don't usually DO resolutions.. but i am doing a list this year...and they aren't likely to be broken within the first few days of the New Year.
1) No staff for dinner over the holidays.
2) Virtually NO Christmas baking - as it is all sitting in my cupboards and fridge and i KNOW it is gonna get thrown out
3) find a way - somehow - to feel less like i am being squeezed in between all the "important" people - even if it means NO Christmas Eve dinner at mom's.
Oh yeah......... and one more..........
4) next year No Holidailies... quite truthfully i have felt a little exposed being involved this year........ There were only 3 other ADULT ONLY blogs.. and i have noticed that every day my blog is being checked from a link that leaves me feeling scrutinized.... i can't follow the link backwards.. says i am not allowed access to the site.... all very cloak and dagger and i have to admit ..it makes me just a wee bit nervous.......... SO.. from today .. and onwards to the future.. no more Holidailies..
Tonight Sir is coming over.. i am hoping we can order in a load of Chinese food.. curl up in front of the corny television shows shown on New Year's eve......... and quietly see the New Year in ........ without the noise .. without the confusion.. without any whirling dervishes. And maybe.. just maybe.. Sir will find my fairies for me.. and invite them to attend our private celebration of 2009 .......
Holiday traditions - i am thinking - should be reviewed and evaluated .. and revamped to meet the times.......... cause
"the times they are a'changing"