My Adventure

Don't "they" say every day is a brand new adventure just waiting?? (or something like that)
 
So I had an "adventure" (see my tongue firmly planted in my cheek?) on the weekend.

When I was up in Ottawa at my daughter's place she does not have TV - can't see the point in paying all that money for cable.  So she bought a Smart TV and hooked it
 up to her computer and she watches YouTube and Netflix. 

I have to admit I got hooked - on Netflix.  

We have Netflix here - BUT - it is hooked up to W's TV.  I had asked if there was any way I could get it on the TV in the living room and was told no ......... don't have the proper equipment.

Well after one week of boring summer re-runs........ I bit the bullet and asked W about coming with me to purchase this Blu Ray player with Wiifi so I could order Netflix. 

That is when I  learned - that apparently I am paying for 1/2 of Netflix which I haven't been able to use - and that yes he would come with me to buy the equipment.

I got to the store first - and found a nice young man to show me the dvd players.  He showed me an LG and a Samsung.  The LG was 20$ cheaper.  I asked what was the difference - he said None (makes me wonder now - that I know what I know - if he got some sort of bonus for pushing the LG's)  

Anywayyyyy W showed up - made some comment about LG refrigerators catching fire .... I bought it and the cables needed (why don't they include cables??) and we came home.  Took W a few hours to set it up - it kept asking for passwords and he couldn't remember them - then finally it started to update the software...that took at least an hour!!!!

Finally it was working!

It would stream my show for about 2 minutes then stop to "buffer" .. over and over.  We tried unplugging and plugging the unit back in.  Didn't help.  W called the service department.

Now this is where you really need to pay attention!!!  The customer service department couldn't have cared less - and on top of that they were rude!!

Saturday found me back at the store with the LG all wrapped up to return .............. I was quite frank with the returns clerk about the reason it was being returned - never mind the fact it didn't work - but the important thing to me was how rude and dismissive the customer service department was!!!  I would NOT recommend LG products to anyone!!

I purchased a Samsung dvd player for an extra 20$ and guess what ??!!  In less than 30 minutes it was up and running perfectly - we didn't even have to call the service department (though I am sure - based on how well their product works - the customer service people would be just as accommodating and polite!!! )

So now I am able to use Netflix .......... and am enjoying finding all sorts of shows I have never watched - hell some I haven't even heard of!!  

And that was my big adventure for the weekend........ le sigh....... see how mundane and boring and vanilla my life has become 

Sunday Sentiments

Another Day - Another Dollar

My life is falling into a routine - finally.

I go to the gym every morning.... and then after lunch I start working on the computer - doing this new job - and sweating bullets.  

No no - that's not entirely true - I am finally getting the hang of the program and the content the "client" is expecting us to turn into a hollywood production.  Thank god for YouTube - as I have managed to teach myself a few editing tricks by watching the videos.

I find myself thinking less and less about BDSM and lack of a dominant in my life.  I figure IF I am meant to be involved - meant to have a dominant - it will happen............ if not?? shrug.... then life will be quite mundane and vanilla.

At times I do miss the connection a submissive has with her Dominant - but then I just push it all out of my head and concentrate harder on the "job".  After all - truthfully - who wants a 60+ year old submissive without the perky breasts and perky body - and perky everything??!!! (and if I let my mind go in that direction - it only spells disaster for my self esteem - so enough of that!)

Except ............ 

There is no off switch for those thoughts..... and I pretend to everyone 'out there' that everything is fine and I am quite happy with the way things are............. but deep down inside there is an emptiness - a big hollow hole - that I am not sure will ever be filled.  And that makes me quite sad.

Fairy Wings

Just spread your wings and let the fairy in you fly

I headed off bright and early on Saturday for my adventure - my drive to Toronto alone.......

Now it isn't a difficult drive - you get onto the 401 - point the car facing west and drive.... my GPS told me I should arrive at 1:00 - which would give me an hour to grab something to eat - use a bathroom - and get to the shower by 2:00.

Except....

Just after Port Hope about 30 minutes from my destination - the 401 closed down.  No warning - no herding traffic off the highway -  Nope.  Just come to a full stop.  Put the car in park and wait.

For 2 1/2 hours

People were visiting in the middle of the 401 at 1:00 on a Saturday afternoon - on the one highway that crosses Canada from coast to coast ........... partying/talking/complaining because there was nothing else TO do - for 2 1/2 hours.

At 1:50 I called my sister in law and told her I was gonna be late (DUH!)  She suggested I take the next off ramp - guess she didn't get the principal of parked.

It was an experience - one I could easily do without ever repeating.

I got to the shower at 3:30............. stressed and tired and needing to pee so badly I was doing the pee dance and not having eaten anything........... 

However - it was a good party - that stretched into the night or wee hours of Sunday morning.  

When I woke at 6:30 (after only a handful of hours sleeping) i quietly left the house and went for a walk - found my way to down to Lake Ontario and did some navel gazing... 

I would like - I wish - I had what my brother has......... oh not the material things (and he does have a whack of that) no I wish I had the relationship he has with his wife - 30 years married and they are still best friends........... that's pretty special I think.  And I think I am a little jealous............ 

The drive home was a whole lot less stressful.. put the car back on the 401 heading east this time .......... and managed to make it all the way home in just over 2 hours.  

Safe and sound

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just a couple of pictures from my early morning walk - taken with my cell (don't ask why!!)

 
 

Spreading my wings............

 

  

I was at a munch last evening - talking to some folks - and I realized just how much growth I have done - and am continuing to do......... 

Last week I drove to Ottawa and visited with my daughter for a week...... I have never driven to Ottawa alone before - EVER - in my life! 

Today I am driving to Toronto - to my brother's - for a wedding shower.  My nephew is getting married at the end of the month.  I have never - EVER - driven to Toronto by myself before.

And at the end of the month - I am driving to Barrie for the wedding.  I have never - EVER - driven to Barrie before - with anyone - never mind by myself.

After 15 years of being his submissive - of not really thinking just for myself - not even picking meals for myself - not picking clothes without thinking about whether he would approve - not going anywhere by myself - not driving anywhere by myself - always feeling like my plans had to be approved - my friends were his friends - plans with friends always included him.......... suddenly I am free to do as I please.. when I please.. how I please.  

It hasn't been an easy transition.  There are times I feel guilty when I go off with friends and he stays home.  It's one of the things they don't tell you about being submissive/slave - how difficult the transition is back to being YOU - not just someone's property.  But I am here to tell you - it can be done!  Every little step forward is difficult - but it can be done...........

Just spread your wings and let the fairy in you fly - there's an adventure out there waiting for you.............