life is a great balancing act.

i came to the realization a few weeks back, that i had to switch my priorities... the ones i had were skewered.

i had come to the realization that i had this fantasy land of BDSM in my scopes and it was what i was striving for... i had this long list of ideas/plans/fantasies that i wanted to experience/ live and it wasn't happening and i was getting VERY antsy.

My dear friend drakor has been writing about his ideal session.. his ideal Domme recently. It was his writings that made me realize i am not alone in this quest for some Utopian BDSM. It has been nagging at me most of this week. Mind you .. what drakor is seeking is a short term involvement with "no strings attached". A weekend or a week at best. Sir and i have been to a BDSM camp for a long weekend.. it was very easy to live D/s.... BDSM to the fullest when you are in the middle of nowhere land - with no obligations - no phones - no tvs - no computers.... just living for each other.

Is it easier to commit to a full time BDSM relationship when there are no other expectations or obligations?? The answer is YES..of course it is.. lose yourself in the wilderness with a whole group of other like minded people... BUT remember just beyond tomorrow the real world awaits again.....

And so .. for me.. life has become a great balancing act (to quote a favourite author) and in between Friday night canings.. and Saturday's chopsticks cutting into my private pink bits making me ache .... and long.. and wet.. and putty in Sir's hands.. there is Sunday Mother's Day.. and a host of other demands....... really what it all boils down to is..........
as Dr Seuss said:

So be sure when you step. Step with care and great tact and remember that life’s a great balancing act. And will you succeed? Yes! You will, indeed! (98 and ¾ percent guaranteed.) KID, YOU’LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!