Sunday, February 25, 2018
Saturday, February 24, 2018
It's been a lazy start to our Saturday -- coffee and breakfast in front of the television.... and it feels so damn good!
Sir Steve has just left to go do a minor reno for a client -- then when he gets home we're off to look at freezers.......
It's gonna be a quiet lazy Saturday -- and that is a good thing!
Friday, February 23, 2018
The lil one just left for school -- and then off to her mother's for the weekend
Can you see me doing the happy dance??!!
(which doesn't mean I don't like the child -- it just means I am SO ready for some time off 'parenting'.)
We are free this weekend to do what we want.... whatever we want -- YAY!! We're gonna sleep in -- shop for a freezer -- and finally get to have our romantic Valentine's dessert..... (chocolate fondue)
I bought this for 'us' long before I knew we wouldn't be alone over the Valentine's weekend.... (cause mother doesn't give us any warning dontcha know -- and yes I sound bitter)
I am off this morning to buy some strawberries and bananas and whatever other delicacies that I can find.
Then home to do some pampering and primping to be all ready for Sir Steve and our weekend together.
Thursday, February 22, 2018
It's just been a week of "life as usual" ...... I have been stressing over the fact I couldn't find a doctor and my prescriptions needed to be refilled -- BUT -- wonders of wonders! the local walk in clinic will renew prescriptions if you bring in a list from the drugstore. I went and did it yesterday -- and I shouldn't have stressed so hard over it -- it was a simple 20 minute procedure.
Of course because I had been stressing for a couple of weeks -- and have this major 'white coat' syndrome -- when they took my blood pressure yesterday it was very high. Then of course my mind went to the youngest daughter's MIL who had a stroke about a month ago -- and my ex-husband who is on the list for a double by-pass surgery. And truthfully I had myself dead and buried by the end of this week.
This morning I went to my lil apartment and picked up my blood pressure machine (cause yeah I do have high blood pressure -- though controlled with meds) and took my BP. It was normal today -- 120/83 ...... but that's me -- stress is definitely gonna kill me.
AND the things I stress over........
Sir Steve took the lil one to have her hair cut on the weekend -- it was almost to her bum -- but so unhealthy!! thinning drastically the farther down her back it went -- and split ends like you wouldn't believe. They cut off a good 7 inches. BUT then I started stressing -- I had been nattering about her hair -- and maybe Sir Steve only got it cut to shut me up!! And the mother (who has been away for the last 3 weeks) is gonna throw a hissy fit when she sees it.... and it's all my fault !!!
AND I have noticed that the lil one has been shutting down -- when she reads and hits a word she doesn't know... sometimes over simple questions we will ask her -- and when she shuts down she looks like she's in trouble or that someone is gonna yell at her or beat her (it makes me SO sad!!) I figured it was all my fault -- that I am putting too high expectations on her.....
Well her report card came home on Tuesday -- and it was a GREAT report -- but interesting enough the teacher commented twice about how she shuts down .... and they will work on her confidence. I should have known that!! She wants to please -- wants to get it right --- we need to work on her confidence too...... I wonder if -- she has always been told how pretty she is -- how cute she is -- and it annoys me -- she doesn't DO anything to earn that praise -- but when it comes to learning she has to DO something..... she's getting it -- I know she is! BUT I do wish people would stop telling lil girls how cute they are -- like that is the only thing that counts -- their appearance! We don't normally do that with lil boys.
AND then Sir Steve wanted to investigate a grocery company that supplies excellent quality meat and groceries for a monthly fee. I was ok with the idea -- IF it was gonna save us money for sure !! The guy came last night.... I started getting cranky/stressing when the appointment kept getting changed from 7 to 7:30 -- then 7:45 and he didn't show up till 8. AND then I realized I would have to order meat for a year!!! and on the spot... like right then!! The guy kept telling me it would be easy he would help -- Sir Steve kept telling me to relax -- but I stressed -- what if I got the wrong amount of meat...... and we ran out half way through the year??!!
Long and short of it is -- I did my best estimate of how much meat we need from each of the categories (steak/hamburger/pork etc) it is gonna be cheaper (I think) than buying it from the stores -- AND it will mean less trips to the grocery store for me -- and better quality ... and and and........... now I just have to stop stressing and trust it will all work out ....... and at worst we live with it for a year and never do it again!!
OH and yesterday I weighed myself......... I didn't need to cause I knew I had put on weight -- can tell by the way my clothes are fitting me.....
BUT it's been so nice not to think about food ya know?? not to stress over my eating habits........ BUT the scales told the truth -- I have put on 20 pounds in a year!! TWENTY POUNDS!!! OMG I thought I was gonna be sick........and just like someone flicked a switch -- I lost my appetite........... totally gone!
I went back to the food plan I used to use -- entered every single piece of food that went in my mouth -- ate dinner with Sir Steve and the lil one and when I closed the day down -- the program told me I wasn't eating enough calories.......... (sigh) here I go again.........
That has been my week -- and it's only Thursday!! Life is indeed a great balancing act.