Monday, February 26, 2018
pretty much describes our life ...........
We are a family -- he works to pay the bills -- I cook and clean and do child care - and take care of my expenses. At night we're so tired we fall into bed .... whisper in each other's ear for a while then fall asleep -- get up the next day and do it all again.
I'm an outsider -- no matter how you slice it -- I am an outsider. I have no voice with the lawyers -- or Youth Protection. The other family treats me like I have the plague
And sometimes so does the lil one. Sometimes he doesn't see how much this hurts me
I don't look for kinky activities anymore -- cause ya know -- it's not as good if I feel it's just for me. Not as good at all.
I ask myself -- is this life now? and I know it is. Now I need to adjust my thought processes -- find my way in this reality -- that truthfully always was the reality -- only I am a dreamer -- always have been.
I love this man I call Sir Steve -- nothing can or will change that. It's just my dreams I have to adjust --- so they meld better with the reality.