Thursday, July 06, 2017
Yesterday was a busy day -- just one of many over the last month or so.
I needed to do some shopping -- and decided to take the lil one with me... I called it ' a girl's day out'. We went shopping and we went out for lunch and we did more shopping. By the time we got home I WAS exhausted. It has been a long time since I had a 4 year old in tow.......I forgot the joys of dumping them into a car seat and the buckling and unbuckling that it involves.......I forgot the "I needs" and the pouty faces that come with the "I needs"......... I forgot just how exhausting it was to have a lil one talking all -- A L L -- the time.
By the time we got home I just wanted Sir Steve to come home and take over. But he was on a big job and didn't get home till supper time. I had declared it a "left-overs' dinner.......
BUT after when dinner was done and the dishes washed -- the lil one had requested some silly talking animal movie -- Sir Steve was dozing in his chair -- I was struggling with a headache (which the animal voices weren't helping!) and the lil one disappeared into her room to play with her toys.
There I sat virtually by myself with the talking animals -- a snoring Sir Steve -- and a high pitched girly voice talking to her dolls -- and thought I am gonna lose it -- totally lose it!!
After about 30 minutes I stood up - got my purse and car keys -- and Sir Steve opened his eyes long enough to ask where I was going and was anything wrong?
Hell yeah there was something wrong!! I was heading for a major temper tantrum. I don't much like myself when I get angry -- and have learned it is best for everyone if I just 'disappear' for a while.
So I went to my apartment -- my quiet lil Zen apartment. I turned on the lights and curled up on the sofa and soaked in the peace and quiet and harmony. I took deep breaths ... I closed my eyes and asked myself what I wanted -- and how to get it.
And then I turned on Facebook. We spent 5 months communicating through Facebook.... why not now? And he was on... and eventually got me 'talking' and I told him everything ........... and then a couple of hours later I asked him if I could come 'home'.
I won't say the problem is fixed........
I will say we're gonna work on it !
And in a new relationship -- 'gonna work on it' is a very good thing!