Thursday, May 18, 2017
OH if only you knew how many times I have written today's blog -- edited it -- edited it again -- and finally took it down.
Sir Steve and I talked about it -- I don't like the side of me that gets angry -- that wants to speak the truth from the mountain tops. I want to speak MY truth from the mountain tops -- nay shout it from the mountain tops. I want to 'out' the man who thinks I am SO powerful - so evil - that I can turn whole communities against him -- who believes I have aided in the ruination of his life. Who thinks I have that kind of power!
When in reality -- no one can ruin your life -- make you miserable and unhappy... only you can do that to yourself!
People only turn their backs on you -- cut you out of their lives -- when you -- you yourself - have driven them away.
Certainly no one is exempt from rumours and gossip -- I most certainly haven't been in my 4 years here in Kingston. BUT I stayed true to myself -- I held my head high and people saw through the rumours and gossip. They saw the real me -- the friendly slightly naive (ok maybe a lot naive) person who opened her heart and home to those around her. They saw a woman who showed respect and bit her tongue (when blurting out the truth would have done nothing more but stir the rumour mill and cause more drama -- and that is not who I am!)
I have no such evil powers to turn communities against anyone -- or have such evil powers that I can make someone miserable ...... nope sorry. That's not me.
I am however evil enough to live my life well -- strong enough to know when it's time to leave the past behind and move forward with strength and a firm belief that things will indeed get better.
AND evil enough to leave Karma to do her job for me.