Saturday, March 25, 2017

Weird Feelings






Sooooooooooo I came back to Kingston yesterday because I have one more re-certification class to take this weekend.  AND I got bored last night -- so I was browsing through friend's profiles on FB -- rechecking their pictures etc.......... and something made me go to Sir Steve's ex's pictures.

Have you ever gone and looked at an ex's pictures / read their page (on whatever website)??? It's weird to see the happiness that was and is no more.  

I don't know why -- but I went through their wedding pictures .......... stupid mistake... it made me feel sad ya know -- that their love didn't last 
 
I thought my life was settled 4 years ago when I moved here with W -- thought it would be happily ever after...... when I look back on my pictures I feel incredibly sad .. kinda like I felt after looking at Sir Steve's pics

I don't honestly know where I am going with this thought process -- something about taking the risk to love again after you've been hurt....... that it's worth the risk of a broken heart to feel that love -- even if it's only for a short while........ that there's nothing more precious or wonderful than feeling loved and cherished and valued and something about the world being a little darker if  there was no love............  

1 comment:

Lilac said...

Ex-es are just history. It is normal to feel the way you're feeling now especially when you're alone.

Live in the present and live life to the fullest. What's very important is knowing that at the end of the day, you have yourself who will be with you, who will love you unconditionally for the rest of your life.