Saturday, March 25, 2017
Sooooooooooo I came back to Kingston yesterday because I have one more re-certification class to take this weekend. AND I got bored last night -- so I was browsing through friend's profiles on FB -- rechecking their pictures etc.......... and something made me go to Sir Steve's ex's pictures.
Have you ever gone and looked at an ex's pictures / read their page (on whatever website)??? It's weird to see the happiness that was and is no more.
I don't know why -- but I went through their wedding pictures .......... stupid mistake... it made me feel sad ya know -- that their love didn't last
I thought my life was settled 4 years ago when I moved here with W -- thought it would be happily ever after...... when I look back on my pictures I feel incredibly sad .. kinda like I felt after looking at Sir Steve's pics
I don't honestly know where I am going with this thought process -- something about taking the risk to love again after you've been hurt....... that it's worth the risk of a broken heart to feel that love -- even if it's only for a short while........ that there's nothing more precious or wonderful than feeling loved and cherished and valued and something about the world being a little darker if there was no love............
Saturday morning Sir Steve and I were sitting out on the deck enjoying our morning coffee and browsing the net........ when he look...
I had the little one all last week -- for 10 hours a day alone. We worked out quite a routine..... after breakfast and getting dresse...