Wednesday, November 30, 2016
There have been some changes around here -- and we all know how well I deal with change!
First I have been looking for part time work -- subbing to be exact. It has taken a lot for me to interview for jobs. After 30 years you think I would have a little more confidence in myself ...... in myself as an educator. But I don't. I got one job -- and actually subbed for them on Monday. Then yesterday I interviewed at another school that morphed into two schools and both hired me. So now I will be subbing at 3 different schools and that should keep me nice and busy.
Then Hands' shift changed. He is working 4 days on and 4 days off....... three months on days and 3 months on nights. He starts nights this Saturday. I know CG is anxious about these new hours/shifts and I know that CG comes first. I haven't wanted to say anything about my own levels of insecurity about these changes to Hands. I don't want him fussing over me. Yesterday we were chatting -- and I mentioned how weird it felt -- felt like it should be a Sunday....... and Hands said "We'll work it out" ... I told him I didn't want him fussing over me and his answer was "It's my job to fuss" ..... and immediately I felt better. I know -- in his quiet, unassuming way -- He will take care of this -- that my needs will be met and so will CG's.
It really is wonderful to know that I am safe under his care...... I can try and let go of some of the stress ...... that my life will fall into a routine .......
Changes are hard for me -- but with Hands and CG in my life I am learning to trust and that is a very good thing!