Wednesday, May 25, 2016
Yesterday was a good day - the good days are happening more than the bad ones these days - which is a very good thing. It was an ordinary day in most respects - gym, messages, tasks done........ nothing out of the ordinary.
Spring has truly finally arrived here in the Great White North... so after my lunch I decided to go for a long walk in the sunshine... soak in some of the warmth
As I was walking I realized I was very peaceful inside -- a calm had settled over my heart. I almost didn't recognise the feeling. It has been that long since I had such a deep abiding peace.
And as I walked I did some serious re-evaluating of myself - of my almost kinetic energy these last couple of months. I have thought some harsh things about myself just recently - I even voiced them to Angel - and the words made me feel sick to my stomach -- but they were true feelings - if not exactly true words.
BUT on my walk I realized that it is time for yet another change in my life. I do miss the calm that I used to have - the grounding I used to have ....... and I realized no one can give me back that calm - that grounding - but I can create it for myself.
Today hopefully will be another peaceful day - I will work at it