Friday, April 22, 2016
One More Step Forward
On April 6th I wrote "One More Step Forward" back then it felt like forever till the party - two whole weeks - so much could happen in that time.
I have been fussing over what to wear...... such a girlie thing to do (rolling eyes) but you see - none of my favourite corsets fit anymore -- fuss fuss...
Then I had a light bulb moment. I remembered a leather halter dress I bought about 8 years ago........... maybe it would fit???
So I tried it on - and lo and behold - it fit fine. (ok ok I still want to lose at least another 10 pounds then I will say it fits GREAT) BUT I thought the neck strap needed the snaps moved - who could do it?? And again I had another light bulb moment - I have a friend in the community who is very into boot blacking and leather. I asked and he agreed to alter the dress.
Angel and i went yesterday to visit him and his Mistress. He was gonna fix my dress -- Angel was going to negotiate with his Mistress for a play time at the party. I was spoiled - not only did he do a minor adjustment to the neck strap -- but he conditioned the leather and polished it bright and shiny. (8 years hanging in a cupboard had dulled it and made it wrinkly)
Angel brought me her knee high leather boots.
I felt a little bit like Cinderella - a wave of a few magic wands and the outfit was pulled together.
So Cinderella is ready to go to the party.... to take one more step forward.
and yet I have such butterflies. I wish this Cinderella could have one more wish --
I wish I could be going with my poly partner - to be able to play with someone who knows my body so well - who makes me feel so comfortable - comfortable in my own skin - but he feels he's not ready for public play ....... and I have to accept that ...... but maybe a seed has been planted and one day................ ?
For now I will pretend I am Cinderella for one night and go with friends to the party ....