Monday, March 14, 2016

Angel's Challenge

On Saturday "my" Angel decided to post on FL a writing challenge she was gonna undertake.  I read it .............. 

Day 1. 10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now.
Day 2. 9 Things about you
Day 3. 8 ways to win your heart
Day 4. 7 things that cross your mind a lot
Day 5. 6 things you wish you had never done.
Day 6. 5 people who mean a lot to you (in no order what-so-ever)
Day 7. 4 turn offs
Day 8. 3 turn ons
Day 9. 2 images that describe your life right now and why
Day 10. 1 Confession


and thought why not?? sounds like fun...........  

Then I started to work on it - and I realized IF I was gonna do it honestly - it was a whole lot tougher than I thought it was gonna be.

It didn't take me long to get down to #3 - "8 ways to win your heart" - and I stopped.  Heart?? I don't really want to talk about my heart anymore.  It was really hard to lay out  a road map to my heart...when I have created a maze of epic proportions and thrown up walls so no one can get that close again.   I really struggled and struggled but managed to do it...... 

THEN 6 things you wish you had never done......... seriously??!!! talk about laying out your flaws for the world to pick apart.

Challenge 9 and especially Challenge 10 have me stumped and pulling back inside myself. 

And I can't help but think these challenges are maybe worse than my visits to the therapist's office........ even she hasn't touched on these topics with me yet.  Oh I am pretty sure they're gonna come up - and more - cause as much as I am moving forward for now - there are still huge areas of my soul / heart that need to be laid out and examined - evaluated - and maybe some bandaides put on to help the healing process.

In a funny (strange) way I am thinking this challenge may just be another step to pulling all the puzzle pieces together - and fitting them back into place...into helping me be whole again.



 

 

2 comments:

Ordalie said...

I'd never answer such inquisitive questions, why should you?
They're for your therapist only, not for the whole fetlife to see, at least that's my opinion.

morningstar said...

I know Ordalie - this isn't your style :)

BUT I have been facing so many challenges recently and finding I am truly growing from them...... that I see this as just one more of those challenges.

I could answer them tongue in cheek but I won't ... shrug - just cause that's who i am.