Tuesday, April 14, 2015

Nothing worse






Bleak House - wasn't that a Charles Dickens book???  I am living at Bleak House now... this house that held such promise for laughter and love and joy ........ in what seems to be a blink of an eye has become Bleak House.

I am truly struggling with the feeling he can't even stand to look at me.  Am I that disgusting???

I never heard him raise his voice before - now I hear it - and it ties my stomach up in knots.

I can't shake this feeling that somehow this IS all my fault.........something I have done... something I have said..... something.............. 

Who knew a broken heart could hurt so much? 

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

There is no way on God's green earth you are solely responsible. Knock it off before you bring out my Domly side.
:)
mini me

kaya said...

what is he doing to fix himself?

Sharon B said...

Missy a Don't you Dare think for one mins this is your fault, I Won't stand for that kind of Crap talk from you. Do I have to kidnap you and Paddle that sexy ass of yours.

Anonymous said...

Maybe looking at you makes him feel guilty - not that you are disgusting or anything - but the he has to face how he hurt you every time he sees you....

Anonymous said...

You are such a creative, beautiful soul. I hate to hear of you hurting so...You know, it's time to maybe focus on YOU creating your own Happiness too. Go out and be good to yourself, whatever that means for you. Yes, grieve the loss of what was...but also start creating your own Happiness to.

Anonymous said...

You are such a creative, beautiful soul. Yes grieve what once was...but it's also time You Start to create your own Happiness to! Be Good to yourself,do something for You..and realize that our sadness and happiness is not fully dependent on others, but in fact our own responsibility.