Wednesday, April 22, 2015

And so it begins again - edited

 I am sorry - to avoid TMI - it seems I have led some of you to believe I am having a hysterectomy.  They haven't got that far in their diagnosis process yet.

They are going to remove all the lining from my uterus in the hopes of discovering why after 15+ years of being post menopausal I am once again having (semi) regular periods.  They will be doing a thorough test of the lining to see if cancer cells are there hiding from the mundane routine tests.  

And thank you all for your support and kind words...  I don't feel quite so alone now.

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I am not sure who remembers a year ago here on The Journey........ But almost a year to the day I went into hospital to have cancer surgery.  

And being a good lil patient - I have been going for my checkups regularly.

BUT a year ago when they found the cancer - I had a second growth - this one in my uterus - that they removed - declared it benign.  But the symptoms never disappeared.

I have been to see yet another specialist.... tried some pills ..... but the symptoms continue.  When I last saw the specialist she suggested surgery...... in 6 - 8 weeks.  It is so easy to forget those things when you have almost 2 months to wait.

Well I got the call yesterday.  I am going into hospital next Tuesday for the surgery.  Today I got the call - pre op tests on Friday....... 

One year almost to the day ......... and so it begins again.........

(whispering) I am very scared you know.

11 comments:

kaya said...

Are you having a hysterectomy or what is the surgery?

It's not so scary. I was terrified when I had mine but the recovery was much less painful than I anticipated. It took a while before I felt "normal" and there was discomfort, but not awful, truly.

I'll be pulling for you, and sending all the good juju from Texas.

Hil said...

Morningstar, lots of virtual hugs to you as you go through this scary process again. I hope someone can hold your hand for you. I would if I could. Be brave lady, you can you know.

Anonymous said...

Positive thoughts and prayers are winging your way. You are very brave so its ok to be scared. Surgery and hospitals are scary things.

Joyce

Sir said...

Like EVERYTHING else with you medical things you are going to be OK with this one too !!!!

W

little monkey said...

If it is a hysterectomy, it's not as bad as people lead you to believe. And the scared part? Of course you are, surgery is scary. I'd be scared too. I will be praying for you, Sweety.

Hermione said...

I'll be thinking of you too. Stay strong. It will all be okay, although I know from experience that surgery can be frightening.

Hugs,
Hermione

Anonymous said...

I will take the day off work to hold your hand if you like. Let me know.

mini me

morningstar said...

mini me - I won't allow anyone to take time off work !!! (stamping foot)

W has agreed to take me and pick me up...

Anonymous said...

If you need an ear contact story......... she's been there and has great resources she can send you.

John

Mel said...

I have been following you as a lurker for a long time... good luck and best wishes and I am sure you will come out swinging. I am sorry that this is happening during this struggle in your life but you have always inspired me!

Anonymous said...

I can just say that I am so proud of you for being your own person and doing what's needed to take care of yourself! love ya, QA