This morning I took one of those silly quizzes that keep making the rounds on Facebook.
The question was "What's Your biggest Weakness?" turns out mine is "too sweet". I made a joke about it........ but it keep rolling over in my head. Of all the stupid quizzes I have taken - this was the one that had an element of truth in it...
I AM too sweet. I rarely if ever speak my mind.... smooth ruffled feathers that's what I do.. don't rock the boat... keep things calm at all costs....and should I ever dare to voice an opinion - god forbid - then back pedal - apologise - back off!
I guess - stupidly - I thought when I retired I would be able to escape a world where conflict and fights and bad behaviour are common daily occurrences. Unfortunately I am fast discovering - other than becoming an absolute hermit - I can not avoid the tempests.
When I saw my doctor a week ago - I gave him a list of complaints I had.... health issues I thought. Turns out they aren't exactly health issues. It's stress caused issues.
I have lived my life too long with those rose coloured glasses Buffalo used to tease me about. It's time to take them off I guess.. to stop trying to be the "good little girl" full of sugar and spice and all things nice.
It's time to learn how to grow a tougher skin - to become the tough old bird I try to pretend to be...... Time to find my way in a world that strikes out and hurts - more often than it nurtures and loves..............or tries to understand.