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Saturday, August 23, 2014

Me



"it's hard to wait around for something that might never happen...
BUT it's harder to give up when you know it's everything you want"

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I know I have been away for a long time.. I know I haven't answered any of your messages....

I am feeling lost - this blog is supposed to be BDSM based - but there is virtually no BDSM in my life now........ it disappeared here...........just woke up one morning to find out that W didn't get any pleasure any more from beating me - didn't desire it - it just didn't fill a need anymore

My love for W hasn't changed.  My desire for him hasn't changed.  

 I struggle with trying to live this life - whatever this life is.............

4 comments:

abby said...

I have checked here every day...it is good to hear from you. I am sorry for what is happening..or not happening right now. But life is full of cycles....and you have lots of friends who will listen....
hugs abby

SweetPea said...

I am glad that to hear from you and know that you are doing alright, ..though I know you're not alright.

Sometimes everyone of us needs to take a step back and re-evaluate ourselves and our situations. The lifestyle is no different. Perhaps W is having a dry spell and things will eventually return to normal , try to keep a positive out look on it. I know it is hard to not be able to live as you are...submissive, but right now perhaps what is best is a bit of a break. Not to be confused with a all out removal from the lifestyle, just a break so both you and W can get your heads on right. Take Care of yourself morningstar, and in the meantime try to enjoy the other aspects of life.

Sue said...

People change. All of us. We link up for the reasons that we have in the moment. And then change happens. Sometimes we wait through the changes, and learn a different way. And sometimes, it is simply too much, and we cannot stay. Only you will know what is going to work for you.

hugs.

alyson said...

I'm glad you're okay. I was away when you announced your hiatus, but have been checking almost daily since I returned.

I've never specifically thought of this as a BDSM blog. It's in the title that it's "The Journey" and to me that includes any/all journeys in your life that you want to share with blog readers. Obviously, what you want the blog to be about is what shapes the blog overall, but I thought it was worth giving feedback as a reader.