We're home - again. We managed to make it to Montreal on Christmas Eve - and I managed to get the Christmas Eve feast on the table at eldest daughter's house in time for youngest daughter and her menagerie to arrive at 4:00.
The kids were cute - especially the youngest who opened each gift with a LOUD exclamation of "IT'S JUST WHAT I WANTED!!"
After the gifts were opened and visiting was done - the young ones headed off home to wait for Santa Claus - and we old ones tidied up and I curled into bed exhausted.
Christmas day we headed off (late afternoon) to the youngest daughter's for our Christmas day feast............. feast of noise - feast of people - feast of food.
And it all felt out of sync and awkward - and I wondered what I was doing there........ and why I had thought this would work.
Yesterday we woke early - packed up the car and headed off to deliver some gifts to friends of W - then grab lunch at one of our favourite lil restaurants and then home..........
The road was dark and dreary................ which pretty much matched my mood............
We started to see patches of sunlight the closer we got to Kingston........ and I thought the gods were glad to see us home................
(these pictures were taken with my cell phone through the car windows)
And finally we were home - safe and sound.
Today I sit and look at all the decorations around the house - think of all the hours I spent trying to create a little Christmas spirit here - and realize that 1) it didn't work and 2) it's time to put it all way - it's just sad now - not the least bit joyful or happy.
I have been seriously thinking this will be the last Christmas - very last christmas - spent trying to recreate memories that will never happen again.
It's not a bad thing - to leave the glitter and excitement of Christmas and find a quiet peaceful life ............... just (shrug) it does feel like an era has ended - and I will miss it.