Would you believe I have gone from months to moving to Kingston down to days until I move??? I can't believe it - the dream - the fantasy - it's almost here !
But there is one thing left to do - something W had talked to me about a year ago...... setting up a contract between us - laying out what's his .. what's mine...
And despite years of doing what I thought was right - I have nothing to bring to this union.. only my pension and a few dollars in my pocket from the sale of my house - that I want to spend fixing up the backyard - putting in a new front door - nothing big. I will bring just me to this union and my willingness to cook and clean and maintain ....
Basically this legal document is going to say I have no claim on anything. Pointe finale. Which makes me feel like everyone thinks I am a gold digger - gonna try and take W for all he's worth.. or try and get something from him after he's dead and buried.
It all just kinda takes the excitement/shine off the fantasy / dream - ya know what I mean?
I wish - in some stupid way - we could have a Master/slave relationship - one where He is responsible for me till I die..... and should He die before me - he would have me willed to some other Master for the duration of my life....... stupid eh?? yeah I know it's stupid and I know it's a fantasy that has no validation in this real world.
I probably need a huge dose of "reality" ........... and that is what this legalese stuff is doing - making me face reality.