Friday, June 29, 2012
I have had another outbreak of my "tummy problems". It started on Monday and just won't give up.......... despite my going back to clear liquids and soda crackers. Despite my NOT having (really) cheated on the strict diet.
The pain is probably the worst part - it doesn't matter how I sit - or lie - or stand - or walk - the gnawing pain in my gut is always there. I have doubled my meds - again! and despite having had virtually no solids for 48 hours I still have tummy problems.
I am discouraged.
W and I have a party to go this weekend - actually two parties. I kept thinking what a great way to celebrate the end of the year............. but now I am faced with this - again!!
I certainly don't think I could bear wearing a corset for an evening -steel boning pressing into my lower gut - BUT ... I can't come up with any alternative.......... it's where my mind set is I guess........ corsets = play party. What the hell did I wear before I had corsets??? god only knows
I did some research - colds/viruses can aggravate the problem - so can Tylenol - stress can aggravate it...... so maybe it isn't something I ate this time.......
And because I am me..... I can't help but feel W is getting damaged goods :( and it seems so damn unfair - ya know. He deserves more - WE deserve more - we have waited so long for this time........ and now ....... damaged goods.
What a great way to start my summer holidays........... discouraged