And in the naked light I saw
Ten thousand people maybe more
People talking without speaking
People hearing without listening........
As I climbed into bed last night - after being up for just over 20 hours - I realized I had not spoken one word in all that time...........
not - one - word. I wondered if my voice even worked..........
It is one of the things that I like about summer break - the silence. I can (if I want) go days and days without speaking to another human being. Just listening to the exterior noises around me.. the hammering and clanging of the men working on the roof opposite me - their voices - their music (which truthfully all grates on my nerves - sounding like fingernails down a blackboard) ........ but in the background I CAN hear the birds singing - far off voices - children laughing and playing...... and all feels right with the world.
Too often - too many people are made uneasy by silence. They talk to fill the silence - they have all sorts of background noise - televisions or radios or video games - something anything to fill the silence.
Once upon a time - my favourite song was Sounds of Silence. I guess I have always believed people (in general) talk and don't say anything - listen without hearing.... and it has always disturbed me.
I will admit that sometimes I am guilty of not talking when I should. Of not voicing my thoughts and beliefs and feelings and hurts. Sometimes I guess I figure what is the point??? We are all responsible for our own happiness and conversely our own sadness and hurt feelings. Better to be quiet and find a way through the maze of emotions on your own.......... shrug...... but that is just me. AND I know I am at times a tough old bird - who marches to her own drummer
Which brings me to my blog (if you are following the bouncing ball)
My blog is like my voice. Here I can write whatever the hell I feel like writing... emotions.. rants... sadness.... joy and sheer cheekiness - if the mood so moves me. At least the writing is silent ......spoken words tend to drift off into the great void that is silence ......... a kind of noise pollution.......... this writing helps me sort out the words that float around in my head............ without filling the world with useless noise.