Thursday, April 08, 2010

missing..........

Almost 9 years ago W put my collar and around my neck. It virtually has not been off until March 8th.

i never realized how much i would miss it............ there was a comfort having it gracing my neck......... and i worried it - when times were stressful....... pulling on it.. rubbing it... wrapping it around my finger ............ and now it is gone.

Last week when i was dealing with all that crap at school my hand flew instinctively to my neck - to play with it .......... and it was gone. Of course.

There were times when the hook that was the clasp would get tangled in a sweater when i was undressing and i would nearly hang myself trying to get it off.. Once i couldn't untangle it for love or money and had to get W to do it. Once or twice i would be walking and i would feel it slip from around my neck ....... slide down my sweater and drop to the floor.

Whenever my fingers would touch it .. for whatever reason......it always brought W close to me.. and i knew everything would be ok cause W was looking out for me.. even when he wasn't standing beside me.. i KNEW he was with me.. because of that chain mail collar that weighed two tons....

Such a small little symbol - hardly noticed by anyone - but it meant i was owned..... all was right with the world.

Until it wasn't anymore.

So i made up my mind i needed something to go around my neck again....... especially now the nicer weather is here and my neck is bare. Before this bug knocked my legs out from under me.... i went to the local jewelry /odds n ends store and lo and behold they were having an after Easter sale. i decided to buy some outlandish necklaces to go with my spring/summer outfits......... nothing like the collar - something completely different.

So......... because they were having a 3 for 1 sale....... i bought 3 necklaces............



Now if the nice weather would come back so i can get back into spring tops... oh yeah and get rid of this bug so i actually feel like getting dressed....... i will have something to adorn my neck. It won't be a collar - that is gone forever.... but maybe these necklaces will help me miss it less.

4 comments:

Raheretic said...

I was sorry and concerned to read of your recently worsened illness. I am glad you are home and taking care of yourself.

It is great that you have found an alternative to help with the habitual wearing of your collar the last nine years. Your new ncklaces are great. I especially like the one in the middle in this picture.

I know this is not the same as before..........but then change isn't and always has assets and drawbacks.

All the best,

Tom

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you've imagined,

Mr Upton Ogood said...

Induced spring: Just drive with your top down...it'll make one of us think it's spring ;-)

Mr. Upton Ogood, human vicks applicator #73

Orage said...

A very nice new avatar!

anna said...

Those are lovely and I'm sure you'll look lovely wearing them!

P.S. I emailed you and am not sure you received it.