Saturday, April 03, 2010

Long Weekend


i started my Easter break on Thursday at 3:00 ............... i don't have to go back to school till Wednesday. i have 5 whole days to do what i want.

Today the girls and their families are coming for Easter lunch....... i have baked and scrubbed and cleaned....... and this morning i will iron the Easter pink tablecloth and pull out the good silver and the good dishes......... and we will celebrate the coming of spring...... in 27 degree heat !!! (20 degrees above normal they tell me)

It will feel just a tad strange to have one missing from the table.......... after all we all had 9 years of celebrations with W

Youngest daughter told me that it has been tough on her....... she talked about how many times W was there for her...her "non" father.... and now he is gone from her life too.... none of the family fully understand what happened - and they - like you - respect my wishes to not discuss in full what went wrong........ terribly wrong. But youngest daughter is starting to talk with me... share with me her hurt and her pain .........

It's funny i was so busy handling my pain......... i didn't really think about the pain my girls would be feeling....... relationships are far reaching they touch a lot of lives and when they end..... i am coming to realize ......... the pain is far reaching.

i am hoping Spring will bring hope to everyone......... of a new start....... with laughter and joy ..........

1 comment:

swan said...

It probably should be obvious, but I think we get so used to thinking of "our" relationships as being hidden that we can come to believe that they are also isolated and invisible. Your experience and that of your wider family illustrate the reality that these "loves" that we kinksters create are in fact very real and integral to our lives. As such, they touch the lives of those who are most closely connected to us, too. The loss you've experienced is not yours alone. It will touch your daughters, your grandchildren, your friends, and all those others who, over these 9 years, came to know the two of you as a couple.

swan