Yesterday was a "terrible horrible no good very bad day" (ever read the book??)
Actually it all started late Friday night when i was up wandering the house wishing i could sleep and came to check my emails....... and there it was.. the nasty horrible hurtful email full of lies and innuendos. (and before anyone jumps to conclusions - no it was NOT from W - though it concerned him)
i have never been able to accept lies - any lie. i have a burning need to make sure it is seen for what it is ...... a lie. i don't trust people who lie. i don't believe people who lie. and i have no respect for people who lie.
And i was angry as the lies in this email were blatantly obvious. So easy to prove ... so easy to see..... it made me angry!!!
if you are going to toy with me at least make it a challenge!!
So when i did finally wake up yesterday - i found i was edgy and angry and sad and spiteful.
i spent the day going between crying jags and angry temper tantrums. (these are the times i am very glad i live alone - i was so not a pretty sight yesterday - nor was i pleasant company)
i doubted every minute of the 9 years .......i questioned every little thing.. every little inconsistency.
It was indeed a "terrible horrible no good very bad day".............
Fortuntely today looks a little brighter.....i will close the door on liars and people who spew forth hate and try to damage my inner peace........... at least i will TRY!
i will get through this !!!