Monday, March 23, 2009
In the dimness
i was stretched over the high double bed... on my stomach... with my kimono pulled up over my back exposing my ass. i was lying on a towel so that i wouldn't leave a puddle on my Sir's bed.
The room was nearly dark - lit only be a small desk lamp and the fire burning in the fireplace.
Every so often i would lift my face and peer into the fire.. wanting to escape into it.. wanting to find my fairies and have them take me deep into the burning embers but the strikes were coming too fast and too hard. i cried out and then bit my lip for fear the guests in the hallway - or the room next door would hear and there would be a pounding on the door.
Sir forced my legs apart.. holding the left one up and out ......... and the flogger came down over and over on my pussy. It hurt, and it made me wet.
Sir's fingers wound their way into me... teasing me.. making sloshing sounds.
In the darkness my body responded ... tightening and vibrating.. and needing and getting the release it so sorely craved.
In the darkness Sir moved around to stand in front of me.. reaching down.. rubbing my back.. murmuring soft words.. grounding me in the pain.. taking me higher....
Sir gripped my hair with one hand.. pulling my head up.. wrenching my neck.. and with the other He unzipped his pants and brought my face down .. mouth covering his penis.. sucking it in...
And then He went back to whipping my ass... especially when i slowed down.. or changed the rhythm... especially when i would wiggle .. lifting my ass unconciously..
And then in the dimness of the hotel room, Sir pulled my mouth off his penis long enough to unbuckle his pants and slide them down.. stepping out of them He immediately brought my mouth back to his penis - threatening me?? telling me?? to suck it right... to do it right.
Later by the glow of the fire Sir rolled me over.. and slapped my pussy.. using his hand and the toys.. and it all drifted together.. and felt so right... there was a glow in my soul.. a rightness with the world.. a feeling that this is where i belonged.
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