Tuesday, October 21, 2008

words and more words..

i was driving home from school today trying to come up with a post for today's blog.. and there was nothing there.. empty....... (and don't anyone bother to make a crack about empty headed blond subbies ok!!??)

i ran through a multitude of possibilities and mentally was putting check marks beside the ideas.. done it.. done it.. been there done that .. and i couldn't believe it.. i have run out of words??!! ME out of words?? !!!

Oh there are a few little things floating around.. like a new female Dominant that Cloud has promised to introduce me to.. and maybe just maybe She will play with me (Sir has already given His consent)........ and a small box that Sir got last week.. that sat on His table all weekend.. a surprise of sorts.. but i am not ready to talk about it.. and Sir is not ready to open Pandora's box...........

i was thinking how life has changed in 12 months.. how Mr. M (my new principal) has changed my outlook on work......... how he honestly listens to me... and how today he reminded me that i can not save them all.. and that i do have to actually let go of some of them.. and focus my energies on the ones who can be saved........... but it is so hard to let go sometimes... to watch a young life disappear into a poof of smoke..

i was thinking too that i have written a post every day for 4 1/2 years.. 896 posts........that is one helluva lot of words........ and it really shouldn't be that surprising that i have run out of things to say........ new things to say.. things that haven't been said before - by me anyways...

i don't know where i was going with this..... or why........... maybe it is just the need to write a post every day......... to not give up....... even on lost causes..........

2 comments:

drakor66 said...

Well it would seem that you are still good for a few more words and thoughts.

Hisflower said...

please dont give up... i love reading you... you make me laugh, cry and think... i know you have tons of words left- even if you dont think you do... im not trying to pressure you, goodness knows im horrible about posting on my own blog, just please, dont stop..
hugs,
Hisflower