Dreams..

On Wednesday night i had a bad dream.. one of my spectacular bad dreams.

i haven't had one like that in years........ when i used to have them.. i would sleep walk.. once my ex husband found me trying to get out a window....... bathed in cold sweat.

Wednesday's night dream was a bad one......... as i was waking up.. i had to fight to come awake.. and i couldn't come fully awake.. even when my eyes were open i was still caught in the demons of my dream.

i got up and turned on all the lights upstairs.. went to the bathroom and drank 2 glasses of cold water........ my throat was parched........ i came into the office and turned on the computer.... i had to find the real world.. i had to get back into the real world...........

weird isn't it that i came to the internet to find the "real" world.......... when so much of the net is not real !!! Yet i came .. and i found that my kids had posted - so all was right with them - there was an email from Sir - so all was right with Him.. slowly i worked my way through the check list of who was where, and what they were doing.. and slowly came to the realization that everyone in my world was fine ... and the terror - the darkness - of the dream began to fade.

i can't help but wonder why .. after all these years.. i was haunted again by one of my night terrors... everything is more than ok with my world......... and yet.......... there was a monster under my bed ............ and it scared me......