Thursday, February 08, 2007

long time..



It has been a long time since i received a "good" session.... we won't go back over all the reasons....it is enough to say it has been a long time........ but there are only 2 days left till the weekend.. and i am feeling the first beginnings of what i have come to call "the itch".. starting in my lower belly..........

i try to ignore it.. i try NOT to think about it.. i keep saying over and over like it is some mantra .. not my needs/wants not my needs/wants........ is it working?? Honestly i don't think so... my body is straining against the vanilla bonds that have been placed on it.. and it is strange.. during my 2 weeks sabbatical i honestly thought i could / would just walk away from everything BDSM.... i would become a hermit.. i didn't need anyone !! i am a tough old bird... (another kind of mantra i have )...

And yet as the 2 weeks went on i started fantasizing about what i could actually do to myself to satisfy the need for pain (sort of like the "need for speed" but just a tad different)... i pictured myself playing with needles and bull dog clamps and all sorts of manner of toys... so maybe i couldn't really walk away from the need inside.....

But i digress the weekend is coming and my mind is full of wonderful pictures.. wonderful feelings.. they come in waves no matter how much i try and suppress them.......

BUT those pictures don't belong here on the "reality" blog.. i am putting them up on my Photojournal (see link on the right).. and please don't go to view them if you are a bit screamish...... please?? these are pretty extreme photos.. well extreme for me.....

6 comments:

Sir said...
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Sir said...

Right no pressure huh, but the candle photo should give YOU something to really think about...

Sir,
Owner of morningstar

Buffalo said...

Damn, Sam! I had to ask what a couple of the shots were about. Guess I'm not to old to learn.

Blazngfyre said...

I think they're lovely.

I myself adore candles.

drakor66 said...

So knowing you where are the really extreme ones the ones hidden away from sight. I know of the feelings you speak of, how many times I have tried to walk away just does not work does it.

Great photos I look forward to seeing more.

SeaRabbit said...

I so know what you are starving for...
I wish you get your dreams come true... ;)