Sunday, January 07, 2007

Peeking in.........

Someone told me today it was over........ all the holidays.. all the entertaining.. all the noise and confusion and mess and fuss........ Tomorrow i return to school.

It has been a frantically busy.. emotional holiday for me........ Today i will finally.. thank god... it's about bloody time.....take down the Christmas tree and drag all the boxes of tinsel and baubles and greenery back downstairs to the cupboard....... and turn my house back into the organized orderly home i love and cherish.

Sometime in the next couple of weeks i am going to have to come to terms with my youngest daughter and her desire for a wedding... and all the emotional baggage that comes along with that one !! "The family"doesn't care according to her...... she wants to have a destination wedding - i call it eloping - that makes her cry... i want a nice quiet simple wedding ... her father doesn't want to know about any of it.. according to this FATHER???? she shouldn't have had the babies first.......... god all i want to do is cut that man a new asshole!!! There is wayyyyyyyyy too much family baggage attached to him.. to this whole question of marriage..

think i am gonna find myself a nice big rock and hide underneath it......... AFTER i cut him a nice new asshole.... (grinding my teeth) and maybe it will all just go away...........

Sometimes it isn't easy being green..........

2 comments:

Buffalo said...

If anyone wanted to be an adult they wouldn't have had to make it compulsary.

Oh, you're talking about acting like an adult.

RAheretic's swan said...

Awww. Hugs. Weddings and the whole marriage thing are all weighted with so much "stuff." In the end, it is what she and he will find meaningful to the two of them. You, will, I'm sure, do what is good and strong and appropriate within the relationship that is between you and your ADULT daughter. What is between her and the male person who begot her, is not ultimately yours to deal with (except as you have to socially). Go through this with as lightly and gently as you can. On the other side will be those who already are the parents of the little ones that are your grandkiddos -- yes?

In the end, it is the love between them all that we ought to be cheering.

Hugs, swan